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"Guilty," freedom, strength, relief.

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Joanne Alldritt "Guilty," freedom, strength, relief. As soon as the judge said this single, amazingly powerful word, these forgotten feelings rushed through me. I had finally got my revenge. The confusion lead me to let out tearful sighs of joy and sudden outcries of relief. The man who had made my adult life a misery and ruined my teenage memories didn't have any domination over my thoughts or feelings anymore. From going ahead with the prosecution I felt satisfied that no other innocent teenager or harmless child would have to worry about this particular evil, pathetic man ever going near him or her again. It had taken twenty years for me to work up the courage to prosecute but it was worth it. My personality is now like it was, I'm outgoing, less sensitive and I've learnt to trust people. I just hope no one has to go through what I did. When my mother sent me to Lowood boarding school after "average results" in my first year at a state school, I found it difficult to make new friends because firstly the clothes that my mother insisted I wore at weekends were not the most fashionable and the fact that I was the weakest academically in my class resulted in low self esteem. ...read more.


Once I had left the classroom I shamefully proceeded down the long, gloomy corridor, walking past various portraits and photos of past headmasters and scholars. Their stern expressions encouraged me to walk faster. It was a lovely day but the small windows close to the high ceiling only attempted to let in the sunshine, they didn't succeed. Hesitantly I knocked on the door and I heard a stern voice telling me to come in. I'd only been in the headmaster's office once before and it was exactly how I remembered it to be, draughty, dark with an ornate ceiling and grand antique furniture. It smelt musty and I caught occasional wafts of old text books and the scent of shoe polish lingered. Clouds of chalk dust hung in clouds around the blackboard creating a heavy mist. The headmaster was sat behind a long, mahogany table. He wore a black gown and on top of his long head perched a cap. Before I had time to observe anything else he commanded me to sit down. I had never been so uneasy he didn't once loose eye contact with me and the sharp tone of his voice ran through me like a blade as he told me what a disappointment to the school I was. ...read more.


Although when I tried to tell her about what had happened I didn't get the response I was hoping for. I think she thought I was making it up, just trying to get attention. Maybe she just didn't want to believe it! This made me feel alone once again, I was sure it was my fault and I didn't get any sleep for the next two weeks, instead the painful nights were spent worrying endlessly about him doing it again, having that control over me again. I was extremely frustrated that the girl didn't believe me. If she had believed me maybe I would have had the confidence to tell someone else, to stop it happening again. It did happen again! Many more times in fact for the next three years. It started as remedial lessons then when my grades were good he didn't have a reason, somebody must have known that something was going on. I felt weaker and more trapped as the years went on and the abuse got worse. When I left Lowood the worrying didn't stop and I didn't feel I could trust anyone. The girl that I had met that day in class Now when I look back I wish I'd told someone. My sister, my mum, an auntie, maybe they could have helped. My family are all so supportive now ...read more.

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