I don’t know how it happened, they weren’t mean to find out, especially not like that! I was so confused…how can a girl be expected to make a decision like that. I don’t know who I hurt more, Eddie or Mickey! Neither of them are going to want anything to anymore! I can’t believe I actually went with it, I knew it would go wrong but I didn’t listen as usual!
Eddie is so sweet and charming, so wonderful and amazing. He is everything a girl could ever wish for and I don’t know why or what, but he‘s just not for me, I just don’t feel right with him. I always knew deep down but cant a girl dream! Look at him…he deserves better…much better than me anyway! I hope we’d be able stay friends but there’s no chance of that anymore, I’ve ruined everything!
Mickey was, and still is the love of my life but he’s never going to forgive me now! He finally asked me out and I let him down, I knew how hard it must have been and I‘ve totally humiliated him! We’ve known each other since we were tiny and I always knew there was something between us, some sort of connection or bond, well something, were just so alike in every way. I don’t know what came over me! Mickey is the most protective, funniest, loving boy I’ve ever met and I now I’ve lost him. I don’t think I have ever felt like this for anyone! It’s all gone now and I’m the only person to blame!
I’ve messed up bad this time, I could have all been so perfect, It could have been the fairytale I‘d always dreamt of! Its ruined now, shattered into a million pieces, there’s nothing to see anymore, nothing to live for…my life is over there’s no point, unless they have it in their heart to forgive me. I would give anything for a second chance…anything!
