I found it difficult to breathe and felt as if I was going to die within seconds. My mind unexpectedly flooded with thoughts. It became clear to me at the time that the world is selfish and nobody will stop for you in your time of need, and that the only reason they took hold of me was for their safety, not mine. I then had a huge sense of desperation as the wolf could destroy my soul, and that would be the end of my life. I was terrified; my whole body shook with fear. I was becoming short of breath and felt that the wolf was advancing on me. The darkness and fearful screams contributed to the savage atmosphere I could sense around myself. I was completely exposed to being destroyed. Due to my panic, I was not able to focus properly. Consequently, I dropped my soul (the balloon). Straight away I started to wave my arms frantically in the air, trying to find it. I was screaming “my soul, my soul” I was becoming hysterical. I was so caught up in the moment of panic that I did not realise that the balloon would have obviously fallen on the floor. My feet seemed fixed to the ground so I twisted my body around, feeling my the strain on my muscles. It felt as though the earth was swallowing me up. The hairs on my body stood on end. I had never imagined myself being so frightened in my entire life. I heard the burst of my balloon and gave my final scream. It was a long, high pitch shriek; I could feel the tension in my face. When the teacher untied the blindfold, it felt like a burden had lifted off my shoulders and my innermost fears had disappeared
As I watched the others continue with the game I was sympathetic towards them. I wanted to help people, especially those who were left on their own, as I could relate to the pain that they were feeling. It was interesting to see watch other people trying to help others by helping them join a group. I felt hurt that no one wanted to help me. Nevertheless, I was glad that some people were being cared for. On the other hand I questioned myself, are they only helping them in order to keep themselves safe and push them out to be killed when they are not needed any longer? This question was partially answered when I saw a boy aggressively kicking and punching anything that he sensed was near him. This gave the impression to me that some people were out to protect themselves and save their souls and not to help others. I thought this was a very selfish attitude to have, but realised that realistically that humans are animals and everyone wants to save themselves first, no matter how much we would like to be less self centred. The tone of the game was very painful and the atmosphere seemed depressing as I viewed the game. Watching people’s true animal instincts controlling their behaviour was very extraordinary indeed. This exercise had been a moment of realisation for me, as I had become more aware of the core characters of people. It gave me the impression that the world is a harsh place and the only person to rely upon is yourself, and not depend upon others, as they could leave you whenever they wished to, like in the game.
The purpose of the wolf game was to see how people reacted and felt when they are overpowered by immense fear. In the exercise, the wolf represented the Nazis and the Students represented the Jews. This exercise relates to the holocaust as both the Jewish people and blindfolded students felt this fear as well as feeling powerless. The Jews were defenceless against the Nazis as they had all the military authority. They were also kept ignorant, and did not know where they were going. This is similar to the blindfolded students, as they too did could not see where they were going either, and therefore there was a huge sense of desperation. They both were very wary of whom to trust. The Jewish people could not trust many people as they could very quickly go against them, and as a result they would die. The blindfolded people found it very difficult to trust people for the same reason.