My family consists of my mother, father, 3 sisters and 2 brothers but it’s only 6 of us living together because my two eldest sisters are married so they moved out. I try to get on with my family but we have an odd relationship, I don’t bond very well with anyone at home so normally I’m arguing with my siblings and avoiding my parents. I used to have a close relationship with my 2nd eldest sister but now she’s got her own life we don’t get to spend much time with each other, plus she lives in Nottingham (far from my family). She was wise and hopefully I’ll be able to leave home, and move abroad, preferably America or Canada.
Time flies when I’m at home so after eating my dinner and watching some television I have to go do my school work which can be overwhelming and stressful at times. Unlike some fools who waste their school education just socialising with their friends, I want to get somewhere in life. And to reach my goal of becoming a successful lawyer or barrister I will have to work extremely hard, be dedicated to my education but still have a balance between academics and social time. Once I’ve spent some time on my homework, I chill out for a while, meaning I rumble up a snack. My diet is not as healthy as it should be, but when I remember that I should be filling my body with nutritional and good food, I eat fruit or salad. Basically, I eat junk food or mostly carbohydrates, especially rice because I eat what my mother cooks.
I don’t get to go out in the evenings much because my mother is over protective; however there isn’t much to do; besides go to the park or for a stroll. Although Streatham has an ice skating ring, bowling ally, leisure centre (indoor swimming pool), cinema and high street shops, I still believe there isn’t enough places for teenage kids to go. Not everyone has got the money to spend and if they do; can’t be using it all up every week just to be able to have some entertainment and amusement in life.
This brings me to the matter of money. I am money conscious, everyday I wish I could win the lottery I think how it would solve all my problems, but realistically this won’t happen. I don’t get pocket money, never have. I have always discussed the topic when communicating with my father and he thinks it’s a good idea as long as I’m responsible, “spend it wisely and save up”, he explains. He will give me money one week, forget the next so there’s no point asking. I guess one day I hope to be rich (doesn’t everybody) but I know it won’t make me absolutely happy, knowing my luck it would probably cause more problems than it would solve.
When my mother washes my clothes I have to fold them and all the others as a favour to my mother or in other words my chore. I can safely say I’m not very fashionable; I mostly like sporty/baggy clothes or trendy/smart clothes depending on the occasion. My wardrobe is mainly made up of casual wear since I’m always in the house!!
Sport isn’t my niche despite the fact that I still enjoy participating in sports such as tennis, netball, badminton and cricket (orientated from the season). I am not particularly brilliant at sports, yet I get an adrenaline rush whenever I play a sport.
It’s hard to imagine myself with kids and a husband but I’ll never rule out the possibility of one day settling down, because I would want to experience being a wife and mother to find out if I’ll be any good at conducting these roles in my life (If my mother’s upbringing has rubbed off on me).
What worries me most is the thought or war breaking out (world war 3). I also have a big fear of death because it will probably be painful and you don’t know what happens after that for certain. I scared of going to hell even though I know I’m going to end up there. I’m Muslim and Islam teaches you how to live a “good” life and not to fear death. In fact it teaches you to be prepared for it but the way I live my life (mostly in sin) I know wherever I end up, it won’t be anything like what heaven is supposed to be like.
Overall, I hope to one day be successful and wealthy, no matter what, above everything else I want to be happy and possibly in love with a wonderful guy. By Fatima Mir 10CE