1984 - A letter to Winston.

Everyday I ask myself many questions about you, wonder how are you, where you are and if you still think about the moments we spend together, ten years ago in 1984. I was told that you had betrayed me instantly, and this news wasn’t what I expected. I was angry and frustrated to think that this had happened and this made me suffer a lot.  After some months when I had some time to assimilate it, I started wondering if this could be simply a lie. And I wanted to know from you what happened, and exactly what happened. I would never betray you and didn’t think you would. I need this answer to finally forget any bad feeling about my past. The hope that you didn’t give up, made me think about you in a different way, and I started missing you. For one thing I’m sure in life, O’Brien and the rest of the party may have changed our minds, but never changed our hearts.

My life has changed completely and I'm a different person now-a-days, but I still have the same ideals and principles that I used to have. I am married for a while now and I'm having a baby. It's a boy and I am expecting him for September. I imagine the day when I will tell him what happened to us, and he will think of it as an adventure. I will certainly tell him about you and always in joyful way.  I look forward to someday receiving a letter from you telling me about your life and answering the question I have been asking myself for many years. Sometimes I even dream with the day that we will see each other again and you will meet my family, but I know that maybe this day will never happen.

Just remember Winston, no matter what happened in the past, we have to live in the present, I’m trying to carry on with my life because that’s the way it should be. Everything turned alright for me and I hope the same happened to you. Always keep in mind that you will forever have a special friend thinking about you and wondering how are you.

Sincerely,        

Julia