Cold Feet1Everyday after school I walked by Victoria’s Secret. In the display window were two mannequins; one blonde, one brunette, very sensuous. I was particularly attracted to the brunette, her pouty lips, the way the lacy panties clung to her small waist. But it wasn’t just her looks, she had a presence, and when I went by to look in the window she seemed to perk up. I could tell she liked me. Her name was Sonia, she didn’t tell me but she couldn’t be any other name. I started to hang out by the Victoria’s Secret window a lot. Sonia was really interesting, much more so than the girls I went to school with. Sonia told me I was much more mature than the girls in school which is why they ignored me. I’d never been on a date. After awhile it got so I could talk to Sonia about anything. I confided to her. She’d always say something like, “you just need more confidence, sweetie.” Every time I left her I’d feel ten feet tall. At school when someone bothered me I’d just think of Sonia and just knowing I had something they didn’t, whatever they
said had no effect on me and eventually they left me alone. Even mother’s yelling and constant badgering; where was I going, what was I doing, why didn’t I’s or why did I do’s, failed to get me upset. All this was due to Sonia.One night lying in bed I decided I loved her and would do anything for her. I couldn’t sleep thinking of her but I didn’t care. The next day while taking a short cut coming home from school I saw some wild flowers and picked them for Sonia. I went by her window to give them ...
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said had no effect on me and eventually they left me alone. Even mother’s yelling and constant badgering; where was I going, what was I doing, why didn’t I’s or why did I do’s, failed to get me upset. All this was due to Sonia.One night lying in bed I decided I loved her and would do anything for her. I couldn’t sleep thinking of her but I didn’t care. The next day while taking a short cut coming home from school I saw some wild flowers and picked them for Sonia. I went by her window to give them to her. “Oh sweetie,” she said, “they’re beautiful,” and she told me to press my lips to the glass and kissed me. It was warm and wet and I held my lips there for a long time not wanting it to end. “You better take off sweetie,” she said “I don’t want to get into trouble.” When I got home mother was more smothering than usual. “I don’t know what’s gotten into you lately,” she said. “You look like you’re in another world. Are you taking drugs? Because if I find out your taking drugs I will not let you leave the house. You will not have any privileges. I’m going to arrange to have you drug-tested, I’m calling the consoler at school. And to think of all I’ve done and this is how you pay me back. Don’t you roll your eyes at me.” After that I laid in bed and thought of Sonia, how I’d like to take her far far away, where it’d just be me and her and we could just hold each other and talk. The next day when I went to see Sonia she told me to come closer to the window; she told me to put my ear against the glass, she didn’t want anyone else to hear what she was about to say. “Listen sweetie,” she whispered, “are you serious about me?” I nodded. “I don’t mean like little boy puppy love stuff, I mean do you love me? I nodded again more emphatically. “Look I can’t stand another night of sitting in this window or I’ll go nuts. How’d you like to bust me out of here and take me somewhere far, far away? It’ll be just you and me.” My heart almost burst out of my chest. Funny thing was because I’d fantasied about going away with her and I already had a plan. I told Sonia I’d be back that night. After mother fell asleep I tiptoed into her room and fumbled around for her car keys and twelve hundred in cash that she kept stashed in her drawer. When I pulled up to Victoria’s Secret, Sonia was awake. The street was eerily quiet. I threw a brick through the window, which triggered the alarm. I climbed in and scooped Sonia up and put her in the car. It was difficult getting her in the front seat, I had to bend her legs, she couldn’t move them because they were stuck in the same position for so long. “Step on it” she said, “the cops will be here any minute.” I got on the freeway and headed south. Even though it was drizzling it was smooth sailing. “I knew you’d come through for me, you’re my man-child,” Sonia said. I gave her a quick kiss on the lips and held her hand. This was heaven. “Sweetie when we settle in for the night I’m going to do things to you that you never imagined. I’m going to give you the ride of your life.” Heaven just got a little better I thought. I saw a Best-Western and pulled off. Sonia told me to check in first, then to come out and get her, she still couldn’t walk. The clerk looked at me suspiously. I told him my mom was in the car but she was sick and throwing up. When I pulled out a hundred he gave me the key. I carried Sonia into the room, locked the door and laid her on the bed. I looked at her lacy lingerie, her long legs spread slightly. I couldn’t believe she was going to be mine. This was going to be the night of my life.“Sonia, your quiet,” I said. “Don’t tell me you’re asleep?” She didn’t answer. I shook her but she didn’t say anything, oddly her skin felt like plastic. I tried to wake her with a kiss but they tasted like plastic too. I feel asleep and when I came to she still wouldn’t wake up. I started screaming at her. I needed her but she just lay there like a dummy. She didn’t seem like a real person. “Sonia,” I yelled, “you can’t treat me like this. You promised me, that if I got you out you’d be with me, you said I was your sweet man-child.” I couldn’t’ control myself. I yelled louder, you just used me, you bitch.”Then I heard a key opening the door. It was the motel manager with the cops. They pinned me down and took me away. Mother had me committed. The consolers give me medication and a lot of therapy. They say I have to get back into reality. But they don’t know that Sonia is the cause of all my problems. She just used me.
