In art I realized I was to have no such luck. The teacher was constantly stepping into her office to get new art books etc. and whilst she was gone they chucked powder paint on my coat and punched my back. The class was laughing at them and not one of them showed any concern. I ran out of class and ran towards my house it was only across the road from school and when I arrived there dads car was missing he was doing a lot of overtime recently I guessed it was helping him cope with the grief. But how was I supposed to cope when he was never around to comfort me? I unlocked the door and looked around the house was empty and there were still boxes in the front hall from when we’d moved in. I walked through to the kitchen and saw a post it note on the fridge it said:
Tara I’ll be back late sort yourself out some Dinner and go to bed at eleven and I’ll see You tomorrow
Love ya,
DAD xxxxx
I made myself a peanut butter sandwich and went into the living room I saw some home videos had been left out I put them in the recorder and saw images of my mum being flashed across the TV screen.
“Damn!”I said switching the telly off. I ran to my room and slammed the door I started to do my homework and now I’m writing in this Dads not home yet and it’s midnight. I’m feeling kind of tired now and am just wondering if there is any way I can get out of school tomorrow. I guess not well goodnight then!
Love From…
Tara Samson x x
Dear Diary,
I woke up my head felt like someone was drilling into it. I really didn’t want to go into school but dad never went in till 10 o’clock so it was my only option. Getting ready tears kept welling up in my eyes and I had to keep wiping them dry .I finally was ready and walked to school hoping on the way I’d not be greeted by them girls. Luckily I never was .I walked in to form –Mr. lowland was chatting to the class. When I walked in there was only one spare seat in the class and it was behind those girls.
“Hello dearie”, Lois mocked “Shame ‘bout you innit?”
“You what?” I asked
“You don’t know … Oh well hate to be the bearer of bad news but Jamee is gonna kick your head in at break”.
“Yeah so don’t bother hiding or else your gonna get it twice as bad!” Jamee threatened.
“Why are you picking on me I’ve done nothing wrong”.
“Listen bitch you fucking grass on me I’ll break your arm all right?” she said twisting my arm around.
“Ha okay”, I whimpered
“Meet her by the chetwood hall at break and prove you’re not a total puff!”
Lois and Kelly said at the same time. The bell rang I was in cookery next and that’s when I met her .Her name was Jodi and she was the first student at this school to officially give me a smile.
“Hiya your name is Tamara isn’t it?” she asked.
“Err no its Tara what’s yours?”
“Oh my names Jodi you can help me make my lasagne if you want seen as how no-one bothered to tell you it’s cooking today. Actually I probably need your help I’m rubbish at cooking”, she giggled.
“Okay”, I said I was glad someone was actually making the effort to speak to me .We had a brilliant time that lesson and gradually I gained her trust enough to tell her how I was being bullied by Lois, Chloe, Kelly and Jamee. She told me that it as quite unlike them and that she didn’t understand why they’d do something so cruel for no reason I told her that apparently Jamee was going to batter me at break. She said I should go and speak to the head of year Mr. Arrows and that if she also had a word with them it should calm down a little. We walked to the offices at break together but were stopped on the way. Jamee came up to me and pushed me in the chest.
“Jamee STOP IT!” Jodi yelled “She’s done nothing to you”.
“Know what Jodi it’s got nothing to do with you and you interfere consider you and Josh over I think somehow he’ll pay attention to what I say!”
“C’MON DOG I THOUGHT YOU WAS HARD” she said pushing my arm. The crowd gathered around quicker than the speed of light yelling FIGHT! And HIT HER JAMEE!
“Leave me alone”, I said trying to walk away
I turned around she yanked my hair backwards she pulled me. I gasped. She hit me on my chin a right hook ensured I was in pain. Pushing her I tried to ease her away from me .She punched me in the eye and next in the mouth blood was everywhere she had not a Scratch on her I was being beaten up. The realization hit me harder than Jamee. Clawing at my face she was determined to hurt me. Pulling at my hair and head butting me I screamed in agony.
I could not prevent it and that was the very last thing I remember I woke up in my bed this evening. Aunt Louisa was fussing over me demanding to know who’d done it; I told her I never knew that I never saw. The truth was I knew exactly who’d done it and my life would be a living hell when I arrived back at school. A LIVING HELL.
Love,
Tara Simpson
Xxxxx
Four Days Later
Dear Diary,
Now I’m fully recovered and after having two interviews with the police which dad insisted on I eventually managed to convince them a pure stranger had randomly attacked me. I’m going back to school tomorrow and am just hoping they’ve given up on me now I still have a black eye and am wearing a collar round my neck cause I dislocated it also my arm is in bandage cause I’ve sprained it. Well had better sort out my uniform and stuff. See how it goes tomorrow then.
Love,
Tara Simpson
Xxxxx
Dear Diary,
Arrived back at school to see nothing had changed they still had mile wide grins on their faces and it seemed the whole school knew what had happened .I walked in and everyone burst into hysterics. I walked straight back out and walked home it weren’t exactly far and I didn’t need the grief. That’s when I decided it I wanted to die and unless there was a freak thunderstorm that suddenly occurred I was going to do it .I walked in the front door and found Dad and Aunt Louisa kissing!
“WHHAAAAAATTTT!” I yelled.
“Tara,” dad stuttered “its been 2 ½ months .You know we had problems and well your mum was playing away –with a lad from your schools Dad!”
“What’s the lads name!?”
“Err…Gary I think Potter?”
“I have just had the shit beaten out of me by his girlfriend and her mates I now know why! You and Aunt Louisa are at it. Mums stepsister man that is mingin! Just piss off OKAY!”
I ran out of the house down to the bridge I Jumped off I’m in the hospital now they think I don’t stand much of a chance I can tell and well neither do I …
Tara died that very evening…
Dear Phoebe,
How are you sis? And how is Kev I hope the pregnancies going fine. I am okay I suppose but something dreadful has happened. I know we don’t speak often and well it is not really easy seen as how we never see each other but you’re the only person I can speak to. It’s really hard to tell you this but I trust you and am hoping you’ll keep it secret.
The thing was well it all began with me and Gary we was walking up to school and he told me that his dad’s girlfriends’ daughter was joining our school. His Dads girlfriend commit suicide cus her husband was pressuring her to stay with him for the sake of their daughter who incidentally was joining today .He told me that his mum wanted Gary to stay away from her. It was her mums fault he’d left his mum .I told him I’d give her grief I would of done anything to please Gary he meant the world to me .The first day we followed her into the toilets and knocked her about abit she seemed scared and timid. I say we I mean me, Lois, Chloe and Jamee. She ended up lay curled up in a ball on the cold tiled floors of the toilet. Then we waltzed out of the toilets as bold as brass .I don’t know why I felt so unsure maybe it was cus I had a feeling things were going to become a lot more hectic from then on.
When I told Gary he was so happy he had just this massive grin from ear to ear and I felt so pleased that I had eased his mind. The day was soon over and the next day had begun, Jamee walked up to me in the morning. I noticed a changed in the way she walked she now walked with her head up high as though she was suddenly a whole lot ‘harder’.
“Alright Kell!” she yelled across the playground to me.
“What’s wrong with you today?” I asked showing her obvious discomfort at the suggestion I had asked she replied “Err Nothin’! Oh guess what? I’m going to beat that whats-her-name up today,”
“Jamee you know he name don’t act stupid” I knew what she was trying to do she was trying to act like she didn’t give a damn another way to make herself seem harder and it just wasn’t working at all.
“Why don’t be tight! The girl took enough of a beating yesterday. We’re trying to teach her a lesson, not kill her!”
“Right if that’s how you feel about it I’ll just tell Gary you’re backing out I’m sure he’ll be ecstatic at that news!”
“Okay!”I replied,”I would’ve told her where to shove it if she’d not mentioned Gary “Do what you want!” I yelled “But I’m not helping you if she starts beating the crap out of you! It’s going to be one on one if it’s gonna happen at all.”
At break Tara walked past us she looked pretty nervous and was with a girl called Jodi who I got along well with. She told Jamee to lay of her cus she’d done nothing to her. Jamee made some threat about Jodi and her brother’s relationship coming to an end .I was well annoyed now I mean she thought she was well bad! I gave Jodi a sympathetic look and the fight broke out. Jamee was getting battered to begin with so Lois and Chloe held Tara down I told them to get off her they were ignoring me. Just at that point Jamee punched her one to many and knocked Tara out .I mean Jamee the biggest puff out of our year just smacked her one and down she went. We all went and ran off. I hid round the corner the three of us just wondering who’d find her first. I turned out Marc out of our year did he notified the teachers and everything was sorted the ambulance came and we thought she’d be better after that .I told them we’d made her suffer enough. The day came when she came back to school Jamee had not let it lie the whole school knew what had happened and everyone ripped the hell out of her she ran home crying .I ran after her calling her back but she never listened, guess she just thought I was gonna give her more crap.
We had an assembly this morning and everyone was told the news. The head came in and so did her father he was crying his eyes out she’d died cus she couldn’t cope and jumped of a bridge .It was because of us; our fault. He called Gary into his office and he’s been excluded it’s rumored he wants to speak to me tomorrow .I’m going to get into so much crap cause of this Gary dumped me at break told me it was all my fault and that he hated me. I’ve killed someone ,lost my boyfriend and am going to get excluded. I need your advice what’ll I do…
Please help
Me,
Kelly