There was always the odd occasion Macbeth would throw a party for him and all the thanes and they were normally quite lively events. And sometimes it even seemed like every thing was good and Macbeth was happy. But now I don't think it is possible for him to be happy.
I must admit I do feel sorry for him. He hasn’t got everything people think he has. Actually now that I come to think about it he’s never seemed to be the same joyful, brave and strong man that he was before the death of Duncan and he was named king. He was always acting as if he didn't deserve his crown. I can’t see why though.
But ever since the day Banquo died things started to get very strange.
That night Macbeth was having another one of his parties with Banquo as one of the guest. But he never came. And every time Macbeth said anything about him he would start to go into a trance staring at the same empty chair each time. His faced turned white and he started to sweat. He looked just like he was staring strait into the eyes of a ghost. After that every one had to leave as no one could get him to calm down. They must of thought he was a right nutcase. And wondered who they had running the country.
Things still didn't change between him and Lady Macbeth there was often times I’d see her crying around the castle. She started to lose her sanity. But it never seemed to bother Macbeth.
Suddenly Macbeth started to get a bit better, he had more confidence but he still never really seemed to be anything like the old Macbeth. News that an attack may come from England started to worry people, Macduff was a well-respected soldier and people started to wonder if Macbeth was up to the challenge of a fight. Many of Macbeth’s soldiers have fled to England to join Macduff. Things are starting to look bad.
The last few days Macbeth has suddenly found a new confidence he thinks he is invincible. I've never seen him this confidant before. There is no doubt that an attack will come now. I'm starting to get worried there is practically nobody on outside.
Lady Macbeth has killed her self she jumped from her bedroom window it still didn't seem to take the shine off Macbeth's confidence though. I don't think anything will now.
I cant stay here any more it isn't safe the enemy is approaching I must flee. I hope I can get this letter to you. And I hope to see you again soon.
Lots of love
Jon.
