January 28th 1911
I’m so worried because this tom of a woman came in today and started complaining. She said I was trying to rise in to higher class all because I looked in the mirror with a dress held up against me. The boss took her side as well only because she threatened to withdraw her mothers account. That woman is nothing but a self centred, higher class, tom. Please hope and pray that I don’t get sacked from Milwards it’s been the only reason I’m still living my life.
February 2nd 1911
Today I got into Milwards like usually and the boss sacked me there and then. I bet it was that tom that came in earlier this week. I bet she used her selfish power to get me sacked. Now I am in this position again no job no income. I only had that job for a couple of months and I was doing a grand job at it too the black mailed boss even said so.
February 25th 1911
I’ve just been reading this diary and have decided my life is not worth living as Eva Smith. All I have had is bad luck, when I thought I have had some good luck it’s ruined by bad luck. I’ve admitted it my life is not worth living! I’m going to change my life for the good. A new beginning new name I’m going to call myself Daisy, that’s a pretty name and might bring me good luck.
march 11th 1911
I met this man called Gerald. He is so kind, so Georges he’s the kind I would like to marry. This is the good part he asked me if I wanted to meet up in 2 days and of course I said yes so I’m going to get myself all doled up in a couple of days to meet him. I’m so excited. There’s something a bit fishy about him though!
March 13th 1911]
I meet up with Gerald he has the softest touch, He’s not like the average man he is gentle and not forceful. We are now a couple now, he said we will be secret lovers. I don’t know what he means by this I still think there’s something strange about him but I can’t explain it. He doesn’t show me around to all his mates like the others he keeps me reserved. Who cares, we are together now and that’s all that matters. I’m going to see him on Thursday hope it goes well!
September 4th 1911
I knew there was something going on with that Gerald. He was too nice to me letting me stay in a house of his and giving all this money. It only turns out that he has a fiancé back home. That two timing little get around he’s got to pay for this I hope his fiancé finds out about us. I hope she breaks up with him so he knows what it is like to be heart broken. He said he loved me, now I know it was all lies. I’m going to escape from all the bad luck and all the lies. I have decided to go to the sea side and spend as long as I need there to become sane once again.
November 7th 1911
I have just got back from the sea side. It was nice there. I was away from all the trouble. All that I could hear is the wind the waves, it was so relaxing it was just what I needed a break from all the rubbish that has been going on in my life. I can feel relaxed as much as I want but at the end of the day I’ve still haven’t got a job, a income, a partner, family, my sanity and any money. I shall have to do something I think this has come to the last resort I will have to sell my body to men. Tonight I will go to the palace bar. The palace bar is a bar where women and men meet, ok women sell their self’s to men. I’m sorry I have to do this but it is the last resort.
November 8th 1911
I was in the palace bar with this dirty gentleman that I didn’t really want be with and this fine looking gentleman caught my eye from across the room. He came over from across the room to me and offered me a dance. The filthy man next to me disagreed and started shouting at Eric (that’s his name). Eric wouldn’t stand for it and punched him right in the nose. He picked me up and walked out the bar with me. He made me fell like a true women like I meant something to somebody. Eric is going to take me out in a couple of days I can’t wait.
April 24th 1912
I have been with Eric for a couple of months now he is so nice to me he is giving me money all the time but I have a feeling that he is steeling it from his dads company. In a way his dad deserves it, it’s only Mr Birling the git who gave me the sack in the first place. Even though it is Mr Birling it is still wrong to steel money. And he has got me pregnant. I’m not sure what too do I don’t really have any one to turn too I suppose I can go to the brumley women’s committee.
March 15th 1912
I went to the Women’s committee today. There was this right tom who wouldn’t give me advice. I was a bit scared at first so I went in telling them a fake story and calling myself Mrs Birling. This woman went mad saying that she was Mrs Birling and that I can’t possible be her. She wouldn’t give me help at all .When I told her the truth she just said I was not telling the truth and she wasn’t going to listen. I would like to thank her because she is the reason why I am doing this to myself and its Erics fault and Gerald’s and that women who got me sacked from milwards and all the way back to September last year when MR Birling sacked me. I hate all the Birling’s and I’m glad I’m not called Mrs Birling.
I Guess This is Good Bye…
