FORGIVESNESS IS A BITCH

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Forgiveness is a bitch

“Forgive me father, for I have sinned,” I proclaimed.

“Only by the will of Lord Almighty will you be forgiven,” replied the preist. “But first, my child, tell me your story.” The tender, innocent and earthly tone of the priest struck me like lightening.

As I opened my mouth to narrate to him the happenings of the day that pained my insides my whole life, I sensed the burden of resisting the temptation of my ego had been lifted off my ageing shoulders. Relief... The dark, oak wood of the confession box I was in, seemed to fade away and resemble that day in May, 1932, where my crime was committed. Excruciating flashbacks seemed to haunt me as I recounted the incidents that were witnessed by none other than me and my Lord, all those decades ago...

“ The scene was set: It was downtown New York and the stock exchange had just collapsed; “the American Dream,” as it had been called, had just been extinguished for me and a million other hard-working citizens of New York. Naturally, we took to the streets in numbers. Flames, baseball bats, explosions. Anything in sight got smashed. Anyone who opposed got beaten. Upheaval. The light drizzle of rain mixed with the sinister dark of night, created the perfect setting for my own personal vendetta.  I don’t know what possessed me to do such a thing, but the fury inside me was to erupt like a volcano. What you may keep asking? Well that is yet to come...

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 I for one was in favour of blood and gore. Wondering off from the main crowd, narcissism engulfed my thoughts as I selected my victim, the moonlight paving the way for a horrendous night never to be forgotten. I felt a surge of might and wickedness rushing within me whilst stalking my victim through the deserted side-alleys, hands at the ready below my side just in case of any sudden movements. Suspense. Not noticing a thing, I followed him, eager to release the burning desire deep-within me.  

As I gently ventured towards him and into the unknown, all ...

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