College life
Behind those green gates awaits a constellation of friends with different fates, who share the same aspiration: to transform their dreams into realization. I have never imagined to be here, never expected it to be this great. I am humbled in this moment of time, breathing in this time of my life. Challenged I may be, I will endure, to reach my dream and let my parents be proud.
The life I am experiencing right now wasn’t what I expected it would be. I thought college was all fun and living a life, but I was proven wrong by my own personal experiences. Living a life away from your family is very heartbreaking. Handling the pressure given by the high expectations of my parents is very exhausting. Though they never ask me for good grades, I know that they want to, who doesn’t? But believe me; I am trying my best not to let them down. I try my best to meet their expectations. And even though they give me intense pressure, I still and I will always miss them. The loud laughter we share every day, the fun conversations we have, everything, and everything about them gives me extreme sadness. Thinking of them also makes me feel heavy guilt in my heart especially when I’m spending the money that they really worked hard on. But what can I do? Having well-off friends and lots of large extravagant malls surrounding me, it’s hard to resist. It’s very tempting not to study if you have it all around you. And that is why I got my first failure. The shame that I felt was unexplainable. Tears were rolling down my cheeks while explaining to my parents why it happened. And now, I am trying my very best to gain their trust again.