Inspector Calls- Eva Smith diary

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Eva Smith’s Diary

November 1911

I have no money, nothing. I feel terrible. Words can’t express how I feel. Words are nothing compared to my feelings at the moment. Any day now, I’m right on the edge and I’m going to jump, taking my own life with me. One other hope I’ve got left is The Palace Bar again. I’m not sure I really want to go they’re again, but I honestly don’t have any more suggestions to earning money. And personally I don’t have the energy to think. I need a good night’s sleep where I’m not waking up every 10 minutes, scared, cold and hungry. Ever since Gerald left me, I’ve never been the same since. Just like that he ended it. He was my one and only love. He was the perfect man for me, he comforted me, he protected me, he gave me more than I ever asked for. So what if we were of different classes, true love overcomes everything in its way. I thought he was my key to happiness, I was wrong…as usual. I regret it, everyday; I should have never said I was ok with him leaving. But there’s nothing I can do now.  

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There was a nice young man at The Palace Bar last night. I’m not going to get my hopes up. I have no idea what he saw in me! The other girls were showing of every little bit of flesh they could, flirting, smiling, really pretty girls. Me, I was sitting near the back of the Bar, wearing a long brown coat, looking like my usual glum self. Feeling sorry for my self you could say. When this young man walked up to me and asked what a beautiful girl like myself was doing in a place like this. ...

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