Memory - Autobiography

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Memory - Autobiography

        Why? I blamed it on myself but I knew deep down there was nothing I could have done to prevent it. If there’s a God then I sure as hell didn’t believe in him at this point in time. He'd done so much for the world too. No one ever said life was fair but this was so unjustifiable it was wrong. Looking back I remember all the good, no all the tremendous, times I had with this person. Until that day.

        It was a normal day or so I thought. I'd been to school, boring as usual. I had french last lesson which I despise. I can't emphisise how much I was glad to here the end of school bell go. I walked home pretty fast as it was the middle of winter and it was absoloutely freezing. The second I got in I jumped in front of the fire to warm up. I was like an ice cube and was glad of the heat. Then I realised I had to go out again into the freezer which is our earth. At least it felt like being inside a feezer.

        An hour later I came in through the door water dripping off me from head to toe. It was pouring down with rain and I'd just returned from football practice. I headed off upstairs to my room to get some clean clothes. "I finally got past that level. It’s easy when you know how to do it," deemed my brother. " Do you wanna game?" "Not right now I'm gonna take a steaming hot shower 'cause I'm freezing," I replied. My brother was in my room playing on the computer. I was still in all my football gear when my mum entered. With tears streaming down her face she sobbed “He’s died.” I knew exactly what she meant yet for the first few seconds I was completely oblivious to what my mum had said. I guess I didn't believe it was true. He'd only just left hospital. I began to feel a tear trickle down my cheek. I buried my face in the duvet so I didn't expose my emotions. Then I realized what had happened and it had sunk in right in. I glanced over to my brother. He wasn't crying but I could tell he was upset. He was trying to keep his emotions subtle. I hurried to the shower. I just wanted to be alone. To distant myself from everything. The next few days were very monotonous and dragged on forever.

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        The day finally arrived. The day of the funeral. I saw all of my family together for the first time. Which, if it wasn't for such a deplorable reason, would have been great. But unfortunately that’s just how things turned out. Flowers were all over the house with a message attached to each. I kept asking myself WHY? Did it have to be this way. It was so sudden. I didn't even get to say goodbye. I got the day off school to go to the funeral. Usually I would have loved to get the day off. But for this. ...

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