I have cared for the child since she was a new born baby, I have always had her best intentions at heart and everything I’ve done I have always been thinking of her and what the right ways would be. Once I had told Juliet to marry Paris she was never to confide in me again, she could trust me no longer. I was o trying to make her see Paris was the better man and since Romeo was banished, Juliet had no further use for him. I still do not see why she was being like that after everything I did for her- well I can never say she didn’t know her own mind.
I have to say I was more of a mother to her than Lady Capulet ever was- yes she was the true mother and of course I was just Juliet’s wet nurse but to think I was the one who was always there for her, I was the one she confided in; a lot more than she would ever dream of doing with her very own mother. She was the one she kept secrets from. Juliet need not have hidden a thing from me and from what I recall Lady Capulet never had the slightest idea of what was going on. That woman ought to be ashamed of that hand that never rocked Juliet’s cradle- if I had a daughter whom was truly mine I would never be the mother that was to prance around in expensive clothes, not giving my daughter any attention except when I was wanting to marry her with a suitable man for know reason more than to keep up our good name.
I was constantly worrying about my innocent child but did not find it in my power to stop her from taking constant risks to be with the one whom she truly loved. I had always wanted what was to bring Juliet the most happiness but knew not what was to come. I do not see what I could’ve done to stop her. Things should have been different. If only… if only Friar Laurence had not… I am putting the blame for these tragic events upon him. His idea was the one that could be seen as trouble to anybody. If it wasn’t for… for that man then Juliet and thee… thee Romeo would be presently with us.
I don’t know what to think, Juliet’s father might not have said directly to me but I know he blames me, he thinks I was responsible because I didn’t keep Juliet under a closer watch but was he? I am not atall responsible. Were her own parents keeping her under any watch atall? And I was always the one to ask what is going on? Are you alright? Where were you? I understood Juliet but sometimes I feared she and Lady Capulet thought I was only interfering but normally they were always to tell me what was going on. Romeo, Lord and Lady Capulet but mainly I put Friar Laurence at fault. I know the man thought it as a favour to start so the young couple were to be joyous and happy without having to go their separate ways but eventually his whole idea that was meant to lead to a happy marriage led to the death of my Lady and her Lord. He cared for Romeo but he was so foolish to let these things come about.
If only time could be rewound. I first off lost my own daughter Susan but then the hope to bring up a child arises and after fourteen years she takes her own life. There is nothing any of us have the power to do now but to carry on as usual. I do not know what will come of me now I am no longer needed.
