What do you think Wall?
Ohhh Wall sorry I’ve talking in my head how could you of heard me, you’re a good listener but you aren’t psychic.
Anyway I was just thinking about how I hope that Joe will realise that I’m going
to start taking charge in the kitchen and I’m going to show it to him by changing his
steak for eggs. That will show him just how serious I’m going to take it!!!
I don’t want to be taken for granted anymore I’m sick and tired of it. I don’t know
what happened we weren’t like this when we first got married you know.
Anyway what’s so wrong about having egg and chips instead of steak for tea??
I’m not exactly going to go back the shops to buy another steak am I?
If he wants to eat his tea he’s going to have what’s around to eat if not he can go else
were, he can ask Gillian to make his tea for all I care!
He can have her bloody Muesli he’ll love that! But poor claymore he’s such a sweet bloodhound he’ll have to go without his Muesli…..Not!
You see this morning when Gillian asked me to feed Claymore because she was off
again with her husband to Brussels Sprouts I thought id give him a treat for putting
up with a family like that and for surviving on Muesli, so I gave him the stake I had in
the bag which was intentionally for Joe. So he can tell her to give him his steak back
but I don’t that Claymore will be willing to give the steak back.
Hey! I bet he’s never had a steak like the one he had today.
Oh Wall…. I remember when we first moved in we used to be…well…we used to be so much closer. We laughed together…we cuddled…we…..we were happy. It’s not like that
any more. We hardly speak to each other in-fact there’s hardly even a smile between us, just frowns.
Hey Wall!! Do you remember when you got that coat of paint? We thought the one
you had on then didn’t really suit our dream house…(sighs) we had fun painting this
little house of ours. I remember that day as if it was yesterday.... but now it’s like
he doesn’t care about what we’ve lost.
Oh come on Shirley, don’t let all these thoughts get you down, Joe still loves
me .……doesn’t he?
Come on Shirley shut up now, you know if anyone could hear your thoughts they’d
think you were loop the bloody loop.
Ok so Joe’s narrow-minded but I guess it all depends how you’re brought up. Mind
you, he never showed me this inflexible side when we were going out and this
inflexibility is also the imperfection he has, I try to get him curious about different
things but he’s never interested in anything other than his annoying habits. I don’t understand him, I never travelled and I didn’t exactly have a mixed group of friends
and I’m not an inflexible person and I’m not narrow minded. Oh! I shouldn’t be thinking of all the negative things about Joe.The problem is that they take up most of the thoughts whenever I think about the way Joe is. Whenever I think about Joe I see a steak that
is over three quarters mouldy and there’s that little corner that is fresh. I guess it’s the
way he was brought up and I’m sure that anyone else who is brought up like he was is probably more or less like him, I mean he’s never been out of here and his childhood
wasn’t like mine I was treated so unfairly, I think that’s what lead me to be different
from other people, I told myself at school that if I was going to be treated unfairly at least there should be a reason so I turned into a rebel.
I like to think that he doesn’t mean to hurt me he just acts the way he sees is acceptable
for a husband to act ad that he gets influences from the way he saw and sees husbands treating their wives.
Oh God, I better stop now or I’m going to overheat because I’m already confusing
myself with all this thinking business it must be this cheap wine I’m drinking anyway
let’s have some more to calm me down.
You know Wall I’m blaming Joe for all this loneliness and melancholy, I think that means the same as sadness, I read it in a book that me Milandra had to buy for school.
Anyway back to the point I feel that if me Milandra and me Brian were closer we
would have a stronger relationship and I would have someone to talk in that dump
because he wants to fulfil one of his many dreams of being a modern poet. I'm not really sure about Milandra she’s very different to Brian. She always took me for granted when she was living here at home I was practically her slave “mum do this, mum do that”
I never got a chance to speak to her. I mean, I might have been able to encourage her to have a career and advice her not to follow the path I followed, I don’t want me daughter
to end up like me.
Awww bless Brian, at least he has a chance to fulfil his dreams. Unlike me, I got married,
I had two kids and here I am. ……complaining about what I have and dreaming about
what I wish I had.
All this thinking is becoming upsetting, I think I’m really losing it now. I know
you must be getting bored now Wall but I guess I could be worse off. At least I have
a husband and a son and a daughter who are grown up, who are safe and well.
But I’m disappointed at life for making me feel this way. A bit more of wine will make
me see the bright side of my life’s disasters.
Till death do us part! Hey Wall!! Us two till the end we have each other.
Oh! And o course Joe will always be complaining about his tea as usual and asking why
he isn’t eating steak on Thursdays anymore.
Shirley Valentine I know your still in there and one day I know ill find you in
me or maybe I don’t find but someone else will, and that doesn’t necessarily mean it’ll
be Joe!
You know Jane won a trip Greece! Yeah, and she’s invited me to go along with her.
I might agree to go with Jane you know….to Greece and find a holiday romance.
That’s the kind of thing that Shirley Valentine would do, she was a true rebel she
didn’t care about anything or what anyone thought of her.
What do you think Wall? Should I accept her invitation at least to get a break
from this crappy life of mine! And an opportunity to find Shirley Valentine.
It’s worth a try and if I do find her I can come back with hope to improve
my life, tell Joe how I really feel and maybe he’ll understand me and try to
change.
