When I got back from seeing Romeo, she had obviously been up waiting for me to tell her when and where the wedding would be. I didn’t tell her to go back to bed like I normally do because I knew she would get frustrated but I did keep her hanging on because I knew that she would be more grateful to me. When at last I did tell her, she was very happy. ‘Hie to high fortune! Honest Nurse farewell’, I think were her exact words.
When I found Juliet’s ‘dead’ body, I felt like my whole life had fallen to pieces around me because her and Susan were my life. I felt like I was more upset than Juliet’s parents and that they didn’t care because Lord Capulet seemed to believe that Juliet was having a laugh. Then I found out about the plan that Juliet and Friar Lawrence had cooked up but of course, I found out a little bit too late so I could do nothing about it because there was no time. If someone had told me earlier then maybe I could have helped her and they would both still be alive but, it wasn’t really my fault. I could do nothing.
When I found out that Juliet really was dead, I spent nearly 2 weeks in tears. I had lost everything and then I thought about my beloved Susan and how, if she was still alive, even though I could do nothing, I thought about how her life would be with me. Would she still be happy? Or would she just want to keep away from me? Would she just avoid me for the rest of my life? I mean, she wouldn’t rely on me like she used to. I used to have to breast feed her and change her nappies and put her to sleep. But now she can’t have me even if she needed me.
Juliet’s death has affected me greatly in many ways, because I feel no point for my life now. I may just abandon my job with the Capulet’s and try and start on a blank canvas. Of course there is no way I will be able to get a new job as a wet nurse because I can’t bear the thought of having another little child and then face the possibility of losing him/her as well.
I may ask Lady Capulet if I can stay and either be her servant or work in the kitchen. You know, I do have some experience in that field of work so I may do that. But im not sure.
Juliet and Susan always got on. It was a shame that it didn’t last but of course, it was I who suffered the greatest loss. But then it wasn’t my fault that Susan died. I mean, if I was told that an Earthquake was going to strike then, of course, I would have taken her to a safer place. But what can you do. I mean im not physic.
I believe that Juliet and Susan are up there (point up to sky) helping and watching me, making sure I have a better life than they did. I tried to give them the best childhood I possibly could but I couldn’t really give them very much attention because I had duties to attend to.
Juliet really was like my second daughter and I will miss her just as much, if not maybe more, than I did Susan.
