This wall stops me from ever seeing my family again, because it pretty much splits Los Banos right in half. Why is this happening? Along the wall are guards with guns ready in there hands.

Saturday, October 24, 2009 12:00 a.m

When I woke up, I realized that I wasn't on the streets anywhere. Where was I? My clothes were changed, my hair brushed, and I was tucked into this nice warm bed. My vision was still a little blurry, but I was able to see, so I tried to not let it distract me. My best friend, Mabel, walks in the room with a cup of noodles. Finally, a face I know and would actually be able to tell me what's going on around here. She smiled and said, "How are you feeling?" I said, "Good, but I would be even better if I had a cup of noodles in my stomach." We laughed a light but yet quiet laugh. It felt good to laugh because I haven't laughed in so long. She handed me the noodles, and then I realized that they were still raw. "Ummmm how come you didn't cook these?" I pointed to the cup of noodles in question. But then she explained to me that we no longer have electricity, gas, or water. But since it has been raining non-stop water hasn't been a problem. She also told me that we have no source of connection with the outside world. She going on and on about how the food is being distributed equally throughout everyone, but everyone is being selfish and not thinking, so they're taking it all for themselves. She was blurting out all this information but it made no sense to me. Why and how is the happening? Mabel was still talking but I kind of just shut her out for a second. So many things are going through my head it just makes it so hard to concentrate. I got up out of bed and walked outside to see what was really happening.

Friday, October 30, 2009 9:30 p.m

So many things have changed in such little time. I haven't seen or heard from my family in eight days. I feel like a prisoner trapped in the hellhole for life. Honestly, I don't know what to do anymore. Food is very scarce right now. These people that think they are in charge distribute the food to everyone individually. Nobody knows what to do! We're all waiting for a miracle. Still, nobody knows why this is happening or who did this to us. All we know is that they definitely don't want us outside these walls. But why? I mean I've thought about trying to hop the wall but that sounds crazy. It's definitely possible, but just pure craziness.

Tuesday, October 3, 2009 3:00 a.m

I saw someone die today. This poor old man was shot in front of me, because he charged one of the guards. People are starting to get all riled up now because innocent people are dying. Why? I don't know. I am tired of sitting here and having to be watched every second of the day. Is anybody going to do something? We have no government, as in someone calling the shots around here. After seeing that poor old man get his life taken away right before his eyes. It made me think, what am I still doing here? I miss my family so much! I'm alone and there's no one to lean on. Slowly but surely, I can feel myself weakening. Not only physically, but mentally. I can't think straight or even function properly. I don't feel right.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009 2:00 a.m.

Rain still filled the clouds. It's been raining ever since these stupid walls went up. I was on my way back to Mabels house (that's where I have been staying) when I noticed that one on the guards had fallen asleep. He sat there looking so peaceful at sleep. I wondered how he could even portray peace. I was disgusted. He stopped me clear in my tracks, because only one thought came to mind, "Should I make a run for it?" So much fear filled my stomach, I almost felt like I could threw up. So I sat there and thought this through. I thought about every precaution that should be taken. Was I going to make it? Were any of the guards going to see me approach the wall and shoot me on sight? All this thinking made my head start pounding with intense pressure. My eyes sight became a little blurry and my body felt weaker then usual. It was so cold; there was a light breeze that sends a shiver down your spine and with rain still falling it made it even worse. If I was going to do this, I have to go now. Weakly I crept slowly toward the sleeping guard, trying to be as stealthy as possible. I was in less then 2 feet of the wall. I jumped and was able to get a good grip on the wall. It was easy to get a good grip because there were vines growing all along the wall. I slipped over and over again, but I was still making progress. I was almost there. I was almost free. Would I make it?

Thursday, November 4, 2009 2:17 a.m.

All I could remember was the wind getting knocked out of me. Pain filled my whole body, especially on my side. I lay there clearly aware that this would be the end for me. My hand covered with my blood, but quickly being washed away because of the rain. Looking up at the sky, I kind of started to see a ray of sunlight. Slowly the clouds start to open up letting the shine through little by little. The rain stopped. I felt the heat of the sun feel my face, which was something I haven't felt in a long time. My head and vision was so clear that I felt way more alive then I ever did. Why? I don't know. But lying there, slowly departing, gave me the peace that I have been yearning for since the beginning of this disaster.