Three really is a crowd.

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Three really is a crowd.

“Would you like some pretzels with your wine.” The airhostess said, I never drink when I fly but in this case I need a drink to steady my nerves I have called my old friend Lauren to see if she knows where nick is living now and I am in luck she had just seen nick.

“How was he?” I asked impatiently

“He was kind of distant, not his usual laid back self. Why are you asking about nick you never want to talk about him what has happened?” Lauren sounded concerned.

I couldn’t keep secrets from Lauren she was my oldest friend and my rock when things go wrong. I had to tell her so for the next half an hour I poured my heart out I told her everything about Pierre and nick and the engagement ring.

“ Well he sounded really upset now I know why, what are you going to do.” She sounded genuinely sorry for me.

“ I am just going to turn up at his flat and try to talk him round I love him Lauren, it has always been him I was happy with Pierre sure, but he was always in the back of my mind.” I am never one to pour out my heart but I couldn’t help myself.

Lauren offered me her spare bedroom to stay at her house, which is less than a mile away from nicks so it would be perfect.

I wake up as I look out the window and can just see the sky through all the buildings there is a deep blue sky just like the day me and nick went on a weekend away the sky was like that all weekend I can’t help but smile at all the good memories of me and nick.

The time at the new years the night nick and me first got together ‘ I was all alone no one to kiss at midnight 4,3,2 I am going to look like such an idiot 1 nick suddenly appears from no where and kisses me a real kiss I had never been kissed the way he kissed me.’ There it is that all to familiar feeling when I think of me and nick.

Later that day I was in the local café, all of a sudden Lauren made excuses for herself and left quickly as I watched her leave my eyes wandered to the bar where nick was sitting I nearly spilled my coke I hadn’t even noticed him come in. What should I do I didn’t want to talk to him here and now I wanted to be alone with him I couldn’t just chicken out not after giving up my relationship with Pierre and possibly my dream job. All of a sudden with out any notice nick turns his head he sees me I don’t know what to do I end up sitting their like an idiot pretending not to notice him. To my surprise nick gets up and walks out.

I nearly burst into tears I knew that I hurt nick but I didn’t think he could not even bare to look at me anymore.

When I get back to Laurens I tell her everything she has a great idea

“ How about I ring nick and ask him if he wants some company tonight you turn up instead of me and explain how you love him.” She was the best friend a girl could have I agreed to the idea.

In the taxi on the way to nicks house I couldn’t help but feel sick with nerves the way he had just blanked me as if he didn’t even know me as if I meant nothing to him as if nothing had never happened between us I know I hurt him but he is the man I love, I would give up the whole world for him.

It takes me what 10 to15 minuets to knock on the door suddenly my phone rings I open my bag in such a hurry everything falls out onto the floor. I hear the latch on the door turning I look up to see nick staring down at me, I wonder is he going to slam the door in my face but to my surprise he bends down and starts picking all the contents of my handbag up as he passes it to me our eyes meet he holds my glance I can’t breath thinking what I have done to this man how I lied to him how I hurt him so much.

“ We better go inside.” He finally says he hands my bag to me and opens the door letting me in. why is he being so cool about all this, what happened today in the café? His flat is so nice his shinny leather sofa and his modern art that is so cool and laid back like himself, they say people’s house tells you most things about them when nick came to my flat their were dark lies in all of Pierre’s stuff.

“Nick I am so sorry I came here to explain everything!” I sound desperate but I can’t help it.

“You hurt me.”

“ I know I was just starting to get my life on track after I left you and then you walk back into my life and my whole world turns upside down and with one look at you I fall completely head over heels in love with you.” Nick says nothing he just stares at the floor he can’t even bare to look at me. “I didn’t want to tell you about Pierre I knew it would wreck all our chances together.”

“ So you just lied to me, as if I meant nothing to you.” He sounds hurt

“You know I don’t think you are nothing I think you are everything. I would never intentionally hurt you.” A tear rolls down my cheek I suddenly realise how much I have hurt nick.

“I should leave.” I go to get up and leave to my surprise nick jumps up he reaches for my arm to stop me

“Why are you going?” He almost sounds desperate like I did earlier.

“ I don’t know I don’t see how I can undo what I have done and it is like a knife through my heart seeing the pain in your eyes the pain I have caused and it is in your eyes now as I try helplessly to try and explain what I have done to you.” I can hardly see nick through tears. Nick reaches up and wipes my tears away, why is he being so nice I don’t understand.

“ I love you Sarah even if you lied and even if you left me to go to nice I will always love you.”

“ But can you forgive me?”

Nick let’s go of me he sits down on his cool leather sofa he puts his head in his hands.

“ Let me explain myself, you see I had left you behind it took me at least a year to get over you, then one day Pierre walked into my office he was the new guy he was so gorgeous and charming.”

“ Do I really have to hear about you and Pierre.” He says almost in disgust, am I digging myself a hole but I have to tell him everything.

“ Just listen to me no more lies, I never thought I would find love again it wasn’t the love we shared but my life had to go on me and Pierre were happy the night before I saw you he proposed if I had known I was going to see you again I would have called everything off right then and there but I thought I was never going to see you again I thought you had moved on and made a new life of your own.” I was trying my best to make nick see that I didn’t purposely try to hurt him.

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“ I understood all that, I just can’t understand why you lied cause I asked you if you had a boyfriend and you lied straight to my face, I actually remember seeing the ring on your finger and thinking nothing of it thinking that it was your right hand or something.” He looked so tiered and fed up.

“ Did you take the ring off?” he asks, I can’t lie to him not now even as much as I’d like to I just can’t.

“ Yes but again I can explain you asked me if I had a boyfriend ...

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