I remember the day that your mother announced that was pregnant with you. You don’t know how happy I was. When you were born the whole family were up making such a fuss over you; you were the cutest baby in the world. I would come home from work and just watch you falling asleep and watch you waking up in the morning and crying your eyes out. Your mother used to shout at me because I would never get up at four am to give you food. Even then I still loved you very much.
I was extremely proud how you respected me even after, I lost my job. It was never easy for us especially when I owed money to the bookie. I tried my best to keep some money for a roof over our heads and to have some food. But sometimes alcohol got in the way.
Your education meant everything to me. I know now it must have been hard to get up every morning and put clothes on that was either too small or too big. As you became more successful at school the more proud I came. Your happiness and success meant everything to me.
I was always glad that you got on with your Uncle Billy even though he brought bigotry into his talk sometimes, but he always had a good heart. He tried his best to look after your cousin Ian. When you and Ian became close and good friends, also being cousins it gave me a lot of joy. As it was your mothers wish.
It don’t think I tried my best because you should have been brought up with the luxury of having fine things such as nice and brand new clothes that have not been worn before you.
I didn’t want things to work out the way they did but it happened. I didn’t want to leave you but I thought it would be for the best if I did. Your Uncle Billy and your cousin Ian will look after you. The reason why I had to leave was that I am sick. I drank too much alcohol and the doc said that I have got a kidney failure and I thought it would be best if you didn’t see me dying. I will always love you. Forever.
Love,
Your Dad