Although I had a camera on most visits, I found it extremely difficult to capture a moment in time, without disrupting the flow of the activity. If I did manage to take a picture, I had to politely ask Bethan to pose and freeze. In addition, in activities, which required my involvement, the likelihood of me taking a picture of her was diminutive, as it would result in a disturbance of the natural flow of the activities. To compensate for my lack of photographic evidence, I attempted to elaborate on my visits, and included events and details, which could not be captured on film. Writing is a better device for capturing Bethan’s response to the activities and her proficiency at the theories. Writing emphasizes on the intensity of Bethan’s emotions. I did not ask Ailish for help, in taking the photos, as I did not want to trouble her. The effectiveness of my study was also dependent on Ailish. The mother of the child contributes to descriptiveness and detail of most of the visits. Personally, Ailish was extraordinarily helpful. In the visits, she kept her distance; this allowed me to develop a sincere relationship with Bethan. In addition, she joined in on activities, which did not specifically appeal to Bethan, and encouraged Bethan to partake. On the initial visit, she helped reduce the apparent aura of stiffness and strangeness that existed between Bethan and me by requesting Bethan to take me to her room. She took the time to fully answer my questions, needed for a discussion of Bethan’s diet, teeth and clothing, in comparison to a similar child of her age. Bethan’s conduct and excellent mannerism is the result of Ailish’s teachings. Ailish encourages Bethan to be independent, and she constantly gives Bethan little ‘jobs’ to do (putting her shoes away, taking her plate to the sink… etc). They do not have a full time maid, and therefore, Ailish wants Bethan to grow up being responsible for her belongings and her behavior. Bethan even takes care of Joe for several minutes every morning, while Ailish gets dressed. As a result of Ailish’s teachings, most of my visits were successful. Overall, although I regret taking pictures, I did not deem it vital for an effective study of Bethan. For further child studies, I will ask someone to accompany me on my visits exclusively for the taking of photos. Ailish and Bethan are positive factors, which contribute to the effectiveness of my study.
My comparison visit was not successful because I had no information on the child, prior to the visit. In the visit, I discovered that her English was limited and that she preferred to speak German. This limitation had a considerable effect on the theories, and I felt as if my presence was not needed for the practical testing of the theories. Her brother instructed her, in German, of my requests and he carefully guided her through all the drawing exercises; hence I wasn’t certain if she could accomplish particular theories independently. However, the comparison visit was essential to determine Bethan’s maturity. It made me realize and appreciate how special Bethan is, especially in her artistic abilities. Overall, in choosing a comparison child, language is a key factor.
Awareness of personal satisfaction
Although I was uncomfortable in the first and second visit, I began to enjoy my weekly visits to Bethan. She is a delightful child, with excellent language skills. On the course of my study, I did develop a good relationship with Bethan and she appeared to find my visits entertaining. As a result of this experience, I am a more responsible teenager. In certain visits, I had to look after Bethan, without adult supervision and I had to care for Bethan on the road to the playground. I had to become more organized, as preparation was needed before each visit. In addition, the actuality that I did not lose interest in completing the study is a mammoth accomplishment for me. I am, in general, merely able to maintain maximum effort and commitment in extremely short assignments. I suppose human involvement and care sustained my enthusiasm in this study. My self-confidence increased in this study, as I had to attain the courage to enter the house of a teacher, who I hardly knew. I also had to maintain contact with Bethan’s parents throughout the duration of the study; I had to find the inner power to call them, if they did not respond to my email in time. It is easier for me to communicate with an adult by email, than in person, hence I had to develop the confidence to contact them in person to get my requests punctually fulfilled.
Awareness of opportunities
I unquestionably want children of my own; therefore I was very thankful for this reality-based opportunity. Her mother is a perfect role model for me, as she provides Bethan with many opportunities to develop and mature. She allows Bethan to be independent, while giving her the appropriate amount of love and affection required for optimum emotional development. Although this was not my first exposure to children in general, it was my first practical exposure to parenting. The experience emphasized on the clear difficultly in raising children. Children are not perfect; children are self-centered, and have their fair share of tantrums and mood-swings, despite a parent’s firm dictatorship and guidance. In addition, Ailish’s involuntary tendencies to continuously compare Bethan’s development to that of other children contribute to the stress of parenting; the attainment of a perfect child is an unrealistic goal, yet a parent, like Ailish, endeavors to achieve the unreachable. Ailish also had to retire and refuse numerous invitations to social gatherings to care for Joe and Bethan; it is a full-time job. However, the acknowledgement that she had a part to play in Bethan’s maturity into a responsible adult is a superb reward for the stress and pain she had to tolerate! I can tell that she unconditionally loves Bethan; and that verity is why I want to be a mother. I am presently interacting with children from my synagogue, and as I am an older sister, it is my duty to care for my younger sister and brother. Hopefully, I will also continue to maintain contact with Bethan as her presence relaxes me. This exposure to the younger generation is healthy for my development, and provides me with experiences, in handling children. My desire to further study childcare and in due course, obtain a child-orientated job is not strong; consequently the GCSE Child Development course is adequate, in satisfying my foremost concern of becoming a reasonable parent.