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Dear diary,

                Today was……well…..embarrassing, to say the least. I met up with my friends in town. We went round some shops, got this really nice top, Dave helped me choose. Well, after spending a couple of hours wandering about we all decided to go to the coffee shop, the one down on Regent Street. It’s usually really cool, everyone’s so laid back and you really can relax. The coffee isn’t too bad either.

        

        So we went up to order, Dave and I. “Two chocolate frappacinnos and a regular coffee please.” Man, did I get a look of the lady behind me. I was like, what’s wrong with you?! I slowly followed her gaze and found it resting on my hand. I was holding hands with Dave. So what? Big deal. He’s my partner. I’ll do what I want with him.

        So, we sat down at our regular table, drinking our regular coffees. Dave was being really sweet, he kept on just giving me gentle kisses on my cheek, I was really happy…. The waitress came over. “Excuse me. This has nothing to do with the staff. We don’t have a problem with what you are…” what I am? I remember thinking, what the hell are you talking about? I’m gay? Is that what I am? “…it’s just we’ve had a few complaints and I was wandering if you could just…stop being so close, you know?” I could feel my face getting redder and redder. Fiona’s was going red too. I was so embarrassed.

        

        The waitress left. There was a silence that I felt I needed to fill, “well that stopped all conversation.” Oh my god, I said it in the campest voice ever. My voice did that funny thing, when you get a bubble at the back of your throat, it was so squeaky and camp. My cheeks went redder. I grabbed my hand from between Dave’s. Guess he was embarrassed too.

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        I felt dirty. People were disgusted by me, by what I am. I could cope with the name calling at school, the shoves in the corridor, but the fact that I disgust people….

Jason x

        Imagine that this was your diary entry; this was your typical day. A day full of put downs, a day full of embarrassment of yourself. Many homosexuals, being gay, lesbian or even bisexual have to fight this battle everyday because of other people’s ignorance.

        Homophobia is the fear of gays, lesbians and bisexuals. People come up with many excuses for being ...

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