In My Veins - story

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IN MY VEINS

We make our own fairytales. No one can tell us how to live our life. Some of us have daydreams of being a movie star or a teacher. Some don’t dream at all. But it’s okay. Until someone will took it all from us...

First breath. More and more blood covers the spotlessly clean floor...

I remember that an hour ago I was whining about the sleepless night. Being a surgeon can be the enervating profession. Every triumph you celebrate, every moment of joy is evanescent when you have an emergency call from the hospital.

Second breath. Why the hell there must be so much blood?!

Through all those years of studying Medicine I was subjected to many tasks that had to assess my ability to work under the constant pressure. When I visited my mum during the first year’s Christmas break she asked if I really want to go through all of this. My answer was unequivocal. I relished the thought of my future so much that I took to no sleep and stress like a duck to water. Hospital was my home. My sanctuary. Until today.

Third breath. The hardest...

I think on balance it’s ironic. To be shot in the hospital. By a patient...

I’m not ready to die! What will happen to my lovable cat named Cat? It is odd and pathetic that as I lay here dying my biggest cause for concern is a pet... What about all the contributions to Medicine I planned to do? I know, I know. My death won’t be a loss to the world.

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It feels like in my veins there is no single drop of a blood left...

I wasn’t sturdy enough to stand up. My whole body was stiff from pain, which seemed to be more bearable with every second. I put the huge effort to smile reluctantly to myself. My eyes caught the very last glimpse of sunlight shining through the sizeable windows... The sun was rising, the new day has just began. But not for me.

Nothing goes as planned... Everything will break...

I closed my eyes. If I had any feeling, emotions before now they were all gone... ...

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