Home Sweet Home

 

As a child, I move homes quite regularly due to the constant changes in my father’s job. Thus, my childhood was like an endless roller coaster with unexpected and sometimes frightening curves and turns. Just when I am feeling the exhilaration of having found a home and of reaching the peak, my roller coaster takes a devastating plunge down the steep slope and I am left to start rolling along to a new part of the ride, symbolizing a new part of my life. Fortunately, at the age of nine, I moved into my Godmother’s massive, white house filled with so many windows that it sometimes seems like the house was made out of clear sparkling glass. Being a petite little girl, I remember feeling like a princess entering her beautiful castle for the very first time. Now as a young successful college student residing in the hectic and busy city of Los Angeles, I feel an unexplainable urge to visit the one place that I was able to call home: my old neighborhood in the small and peaceful city of Garden Grove.  

Even though ten years have gone by, I still feel all the sensations that came to me when I was first introduced to this house. A wide smile is coming across my face as I slowly approach the gigantic brown door with sections of glass paintings like those you see in the famous Notre Dame Cathedral. It still smells of newly sawed wood and the gloss that is painted over it shimmers in the sunlight, giving me a sense of welcoming and love. A tingling feeling comes over me and I giggle like a young schoolgirl who just saw her crush over in the distance.

I find it so difficult to believe yet so comforting to see all the physical features of the house the same way that I have left it. My perspective of course has change in some degree because now I see this place not as a present home, but as a piece of my childhood that I hold so dear to my heart. This gigantic mansion is guarded by a tall, cream-painted metal gate, covered with fancy designs similar to the curves and twists of a curly fry.  Being within that wall, I feel like I am in the arms of a guardian angel and that no harm can come my way.  The front yard is fill with exotic flowers of all shapes, sizes, colors, and scent. One sniff and you’re intoxicated with the bliss of being in heaven, never wanting to return to reality. There is a patio table and chairs on the front porch where I sit to just watch the sky and the plants in front of me. I remember specific times when I remain in that position so long that my thigh had the imprints of the rubber horizontal straps on the patio chair, of which then I would sit and rub until it fades away.

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Inside, I am greeted by the gentle and soft hug of my Godmother. Even though the house appears unchanged, she however, has aged into someone that I barely recognize. Dark lines of wrinkles on the side of her eyes are visibly clear. The roots of her hair are now white and she seems exhausted. She walks over to the kitchen counter and starts washing the vegetables to prepare for a delicious meal. I quickly walk over and offer to lend a hand, but is rejected and told to go take a walk and enjoy myself before dinner is ready. So ...

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