Most of the other girls at school put a lot of time and effort
into their hair. I don’t. To me it seems almost insane for people to
get up extra early so that they can have a little more “grooming
time”. I think it stupid for people to judge themselves and others
on the way that they look. To me, it’s pointless.
At school I’ve always felt a little insecure, even if I have
covered it up by being “extra-loud”. It’s not that I have no self-
confidence but I always feel like the odd one out. At school I’m in
more of a minority group. My school is consists of mainly Black
African/Caribbean people. I’m also quite short for my age. This
singles me out even more. It was exactly like this in my primary
school, except the school consisted of mainly white people. Even
though I’ve still got two more years in high school, I can’t wait to
leave. I want to meet new people.
Every morning, I leave the house at a five to eight. I
automatically tighten my blazer around me as the chilly morning
air greets me. When I’m at school everything feels like it’s going at
a “fast-forward pace”. It feels like I’ve only been at school for an
hour when I hear the end-of-school bell sound. I walk home in a
day-dream mood. Sometimes, I reach my house and I feel stunned.
This is because I can’t remember actually making my way home
because I would have been in such a daze.
When I get home, I relax. After a while, I’ll start my
homework. I’ve learnt from past mistakes that you have to put
work into getting good marks. I’ve always been in the top half of
my class (academically). About a year ago, I got a bit big-headed
and my grades started to drop. I thought that I could get good
marks without working. It’s impossible (I should know). It was
only until my parents noticed my idleness and had “a little chat”
with me that I got my act together. I now quite enjoy working hard.
I know the reason for this. When I’m older, I know that if I work
hard I should get a good job. This would just show all of the
people that thought they were “all that” in school that I’m better
than them.
Time at home tends to drift by slowly. When I finish my
homework I lounge around the house, maybe doing some reading
or watching the television. I don’t really have a set time at which I
go to sleep but I normally get tired at around 10:30. I go to bed
when I tired. It’s as simple as that.
I fall asleep comforted in a way, by the thought that the same
day awaits me tomorrow.
Deepa Nair.
