Still if it had to be done I ought to have done it myself. He was my dog, my companion, my friend. I don’t know how I am going to get through the last few years of my life without him. I shoulda done it myself. They would let me leave this ranch but where would I go. I can’t go to the farm on my own can I. The thought of leaving my dog behind, is just too powerful so I’ve decided I’m not going anywhere. My dog jus goes round and round in my head. I mean, Carlson is a fine bloke ‘n’ all but I still regret it. I bet it was that Curley that told him to do it. Bloody ‘hand fulla Vaseline’.
Ever since I met Curley’s wife I knew she was bad. Never expected it to end the way it did though. I didn’t expect to find her dead on the barn floor. I mean who did. I panicked at first but I knew what to do I had to tell George before everybody else. It was all her fault. She was the one who came to Lennie, I mean, Lennie wouldn’t want to see her not by the way George told him to stay away. I bet that tart even told him to touch her it’s something that she would do by the way every one speaks about her. No one that I know of, ever respected her she was just another toy in the eyes of Curley, another tart in the eyes of us.
From the moment Lennie and Curley met everyone was expecting trouble. I mean, that was all we talked bout at dinner. Those two are a right pair. I mean, a crazy bastard and a golden gloves champion. Yet, it looked like the crazy bastard lost in the end. After all that he did; I mean, crushing Curley’s hand and breaking his wife’s neck. He went and lost the fight. There ain’t nobody that I know of, and if there was I would know, that has done that much damage to Curley. All I remember was Carlson’s gun missing and they went to find Lennie to put an end to it all.
Rumour has it that George hadda overpower Lennie to get the gun. Then Lennie got shot in a struggle but I gotta feeling that, by the way Slim was quiet, that something is not right. Everyone’s moving on now. George has left. Lennie is dead. Curley’s wife is dead. Curley’s gotta new girlfriend. I nearly hadda new pup from Lulu, Slim’s dog, but jus as I was pickin’ it it made me feel bad inside; made me feel even worse bout my old companion.