It was weird one night; I was out with my friends. I was outside a pub and I looked in the corner of my eye and I saw the girl. It was dark, she was wearing black, every part of her clothing was black, I wondered what she was up to, I kept looking and I saw her climbing a fence into the old brewery. She vanished.
She looked down and saw the blood running from her wrists, she dropped the blade holding in her left hand. Now, she was beginning to fall, fall into the endless darkness, to never come back, she could feel it, all she had to do was close her eyes and she would never have to open them again.
She was waiting now for it to come, she had spent so much time trying to escape from the dark that she didn’t want to try anymore, she was done and finally she could rest, rest forever. She couldn’t remember the clouds of doom or the sadness of her family that used to sound all around her, and she didn’t want to remember any more, now she knew what she had to do and she was okay with that.
She would never see the people she loved again but that was the price she was willing to pay, for she knew she brought only sadness and anger to their lives, and the darkness that followed here where ever she went, even if she was out side and the sun was blazing over her head she saw only the darkness, and she knew she was beginning to share this darkness with the few people she truly loved and she could not live with that, and soon she wouldn’t have to.
Thinking about her family and what they will think when they find out about what she is doing, a silent tear ran down her cheek, because she knew that even if what she was doing was the right choice, her loved ones would probably not see it, and they would most likely get angry at her, for some time at least, but when they would start to see the light again they would understand that what she did, was truly the only thing she could do to get out of this mess and save her and them.
So I say now, goodbye and love for always, I will always be with you even if you can’t see me or hear me, whether you like it or not, because no matter how hard I try I could never truly leave you….
Her last thought were her goodbyes to them and she hoped with all her might that after some time they would understand why she had to do this, and that they would not blame themselves for what she did, because they where the best family and friends she could ever have hoped for, she was just not meant for this world, it was her time to go now, no matter what people did or said, she was done. She slipped slowly into the darkness, getting the rest she so much craved, to never wake up again.
