This I did not want for the poor little child and I decided to look after him when he was staying with us.
Dairy Entry Two:
I was up and awake, I could not sleep, I had a strange feeling which was surrounding me. I was drunk and tired, but I could not sleep, I knew that something was bothering me. Since Oliver had arrived, I have had a change of heart; I knew that Oliver should not join us criminals. I had a strange feeling and that feeling was telling me to look after and care for Oliver.
I had a sense of hatred, telling me that Oliver did not like me, but that did not affect me caring and looking after him. He probably thought that I was a drunken prostitute; I did not want him to think of me like this. But later on when I tucked Oliver in bed, he said, “that I was nice and caring”. This affected my feelings and I knew that Oliver should not be at this dump. It was my responsibility to look after him during his stay.
Diary Entry Three:
It was kind of weird of today and I found out something shocking. The rich do treat the poor the same and I experienced that when I visited, Brownlows home. I was treated like a guest there. I was shown respect and treated very nicely by everyone, even though I did not deserve it.
I broke down into tears, because I have never been treated fairly and nicely. I was even more shocked that the rich were even talking to me, because usually I am treated harshly and disrespectfully. These people have touched my heart and I am wondering whet ever to tell them the truth of what is going on. To show a sign of respect the rich offered me money and told me to start of a new life, but I could not take the money and also betray the people who I have known for ages. Instead I asked for a white handkerchief and they gave it to me happily. I now know that all the rich are not bad and are very nice and it was an emotional day for me.
Diary Entry Four:
Today was a happy and emotional day for me, this is because I knew I did something right for a change. I knew that Oliver should not be living with us, because I knew he could do something better with his life. So I knew I had to do something right and so I did. At night, I went to the bridge to meet, Brownlow and Rose (she was very nice), the reason behind this was I had to tell them something important.
I wanted them to keep Oliver safe and away from danger and also I told them about Fagin and Bill and what bad deeds they have committed. I wanted peace and not violence; I had to snitch on Bill and the rest because it was for their own good. I was so happy that I sorted this mess up, but I feared that someone was spying on me and this gave me a shiver around my body.
Diary Entry Five:
I have a strange feeling that this is my last time writing on this diary. This is because I do not think that I will be alive by tomorrow. When I went to talk to, Brownlow and Rose, I had a strange feeling that someone was watching me, but I had to do the right thing, by helping Oliver. If something bad happens to me, I will know that I have done well by helping Oliver.
I hope everything will be ok, but I have a strange feeling that it will not be all happy news. If word gets to Bill, then I know I am doomed, because he is the kind of guy who loses his temper quickly. But all I can do now is hope and wait and see what lies ahead later on. This might even be my last diary entry; all I can do now is pray for the best.
