It seemed like a dream come true when we all found each other in the countryside again. All the fun started all over again, of course by then I knew my feeling towards Mickey, I told him every day, before school ‘Mickey, I love you’ and after school ‘Mickey I love you.’ He was too shy though, it only used to embarrass him. I don’t know if we would ever have got together if it wasn’t for Eddie. Eddie had such a good heart, he told me that he loved me and the same day he told Mickey to get his act together. Eddie just wanted to make me happy, that’s who he was, and he would’ve done anything to please you.
‘Course he went off to university, he came from a different class to us and I guess when he went it was the first time me and Mickey ever realised we were different to him. Everything seemed to go downhill from then on really. Mickey lost his job and I conveniently joined the club, mind you Mrs. Johnstone was wonderful about it. She let us live at hers, ‘until you get yourselves on your feet’ she said.
But then our Sammy led Mickey astray, Mickey’s always looked up to Sammy, and to say the least he is not the best role model. Anyway Mickey ended up doin’ time. Seven years they gave him, he got out early for good behaviour. But by then it was too late, it seemed Mickey’s personality had drained away.
I knew exactly what it was, those pills, I hated him taking them but he thought he needed them. One day he even told me ‘I take them because they make me invisible.’
As you can see, it was a rough time and so for once ‘I wondered what the price would be to let the young girl out’, and have a bit of fun. Eddie had been helping us a lot. Recently he got Mickey his job and us a house. Not to Mickey’s knowledge, mind, he is far too stubborn to ever ask for help. Anyway I grew fonder and fonder of Eddie and, well, we kissed. It was just a kiss between friends, nothing more and nothing less. But even that thought will not comfort me or help me sleep at night.