“Are you okay?” she said laughing with the class. My face just suddenly lit up with surprise to what she had said. I couldn’t communicate with her. I was speechless.
“Your Alice, aren’t you?” She said. She actually knew my name! That’s quite stirring seeing as it’s Susie we are talking about. I couldn’t get the words out; I just kept humiliating myself even more.
“Uum…yeah. I’m Alice; I think I’m okay thanks.” I replied, stuttering. It was a bit of a relief to at least get three or four words out.
“Guys shut up! You all are so immature; she only fell off her chair!!” she shouted out to the class. Well at least she was sticking up for me, then I didn’t care what she said!
“I’m Susie by the way”, she said. As if I didn’t know who she was!
“I’ve seen you around. Cheers for helping me by the way.” I replied.
I rapidly got up from the floor, silently sat back on the chair, and I just slouched back down on the seat. Things calmed down a bit after that…well lets just say after that shameful moment.
I decided. I was going to be as friendly as I could with Susie. ‘She’s not getting Ben. I was. He was going to be mine, not Susie’s, all mine’, I thought to myself. I have plans that involve her. Ben was going to be mine. He WILL be mine. I will make him mine. Isn’t revenge just so sweet?
I saw Susie after school. She said I was cool! I’m going out with her next Friday night. She had just made my plan to befriend her SO much easier. I thought, ‘YES, she’s coming out with me!’ How was I going to pull this off?
It was lunch, and Susie started to glide over in my direction. I wasn’t actually that nervous this time because I knew what I was getting…Ben. She looked so perfect. Her long, blonde, flowing locks just swaying with the effortless movements of her miraculous body. Then…He walked over. My vision went completely blank. The only person I could see was a picture of Ben. My heart started pounding faster and faster as if I was trying to run away from a killer in a horror movie and not being able to escape. Do you know that feeling? My breath just started getting heavier and heavier and my heart beating swiftly. I felt like screaming out, ‘settle down Alice!’ but I was too fixed in my own vivid imagination. Suddenly, I heard this sweet silent voice say,
“Hi Susie, you alright?” Guess who it was? You got it in one. It was Ben. I quickly came back to normality and again, I went red. I went as red as the stripe in the British flag. I felt like collapsing. My legs were deficient. ‘Pull yourself together Alice, you’re not on your own here!’ I kept saying to myself. It’s weird, it’s like I had two personalities. Sometimes, I would think to myself that I was a psychopath. I can’t have been. I hadn’t don’t anything wrong…yet.
“Oh hi Ben. This is my friend Alice,” she said. So I was her friend then was I! This whole situation just seemed abit to sudden. I wasn’t complaining though. This was going exactly the way I planned.
I thought that if I was going out with Susie, I had to at least talk to her and get to know her. So I did. I talked to her the whole of lunch break. It felt a bit awkward, but luckily she was on her own. We agreed that I would get us a lift down there, where we were going.
It was Friday night. I showed up in my mum’s ancient, hideous Honda. Just as we were arriving, I saw this huge, florescent sign as bright as a 100-Watt light bulb. She was dressed so flawless. This made me feel rather insecure. I was wearing these outmoded, unattractive cloths that wouldn’t of got me anywhere with boys. ‘Why does she have to be so perfect?’. I kept asking myself that same old issue. It got boring after awhile. I considered having some fun with Susie. Not the type of fun you are probably thinking of though. We were both fifteen year-old girls. We both, together, made an arrangement that we would act as sixteen year-olds, go into a pub and buy some alcohol. I don’t think Susie was really up for the idea. I was, so I didn’t care what she thought. We arrived at the pub. I had never really had alcohol before. I told Susie that it wasn’t a strong drink, the one that we brought. I think it was Vodka blue ice or something along those words. She had drunk it in less than a minute! I was so astonished.
“Have you ever drunk before?” I asked.
“No. Never.” She replied.
My plan was to get her drunk. Well, you probably would have guessed that by now. It didn’t really work though because the security guard knew she was drunk and had to throw us out. I phoned my mum not long after and demanded for her to pick me up. Susie had done the same.
The following night, I had thought of a superb idea. I observed my phone book on my mobile, and i came to Ben. I can’t remember how I got his number. It was probably by our friends mucking about. This is what I had texted him:
‘Hi Ben, it’s Susie. Meet me in Little Candle Woods at 8.00 tonight just by the toilets. You will see me by the edge. I am wearing a yellow coat. Tb xxx’. This idea was sure to work. All I had to do now was to text Susie and pretend to be Ben.
‘ Hi Susie, it’s Ben. Meet me in Little Candle Woods at 8.30 tonight by the barbecue area near the cliff. Tb xxx’. I received a message from both. They had agreed to meet at these times. It was now going to happen for sure this time!
It was 7.30. I started to feel slightly scared. What if this plan wouldn’t work? I needed to be optimistic. I couldn’t back out now because then they might actually meet! I would then be bringing them closer together! That would be pointless. It was now 7.45. I needed to go start my small journey to the woods. I lifted up my coat and placed it on.
As I rambled down the old, dirty path, which led to the woods, I could just make out a quiet noise. It sounded like the crispy leaves cracking as you wander over them. I slowly peeked over my shoulder. It was too gloomy to picture anything. I just carried on walking. ‘It was probably just a bird’, I thought to myself. I couldn’t see anything as I walked through the woods. I kept bumping into trees. I finally arrived by the toilets for my first ‘trip’. I had to keep so still and silent encase Susie was already here. I don’t think she was though. I could here someone walking. It was far too dark and misty to see if it was her or not. As this person walked closer, I could just make out it being Susie. At this point I was just peering round the edge of a tall tree. My heart started beating. I was so afraid of what could happen if I were to do what I was about to do. She hadn’t reached the toilets yet, but she just stopped. I thought ‘what the hell is she doing! She can’t go back now, I have it all planned’. What if she had seen me? What if people were to find out about this, I could be in so much trouble. ‘Just shut up Alice this is going to work’ I
Whispered to myself. From my large, yellow coat pocket, I quickly withdrawed a bin liner. As she got closer towards the toilets, I walked silently but quickly towards her hideous direction. She gazed around for a bit, as if she knew I was there. This made me worried because it may have spoiled my perfect moment. I didn’t care. I followed after her at her walking pace. I heard someone breathing really heavily. I didn’t know if it was Susie or I. Suddenly…I chopped over a random branch, which just happened to be right in front of my foot! The energy that took up this fall made my breathing heavy and Susie was looking very suspicious. Luckily she just carried on walking. She had already gone passed the toilets so I thought she might have not seen them. This was the time I just wished I would have one of my mum’s sterling silver chopping knives on me! That would just spoil the fun if I were to just suddenly stab her. It would work though! As I gradually stood back up I carried on following her. I think now she knew she had led herself the wrong way. I just ran up behind her hoping she wouldn’t turn around, and I just quickly pulled this bin liner over the top of her head. She was so strong and I didn’t think I could hold it on there. She was so much taller then me, it was difficult. I knew if I could just stop her from breathing it would be over. About one minute later she just stopped trying to get this bin liner off. I managed to picture a tree with a huge branch not that far away. I walked over there with Susie flopped over my shoulder. I got out some rope from my pocket that i had stolen from my dad’s garage this afternoon, and I tied it around her neck. It wasn’t that tight. I climbed up on this little dugout thing that was just next to me, and struggled to lift Susie up. Once I had done, I gently yanked her onto this tree branch and just dropped her. I can’t believe what I had done! This was not like me! Her face looked horrific. I couldn’t stand looking at her. She was completely white and her eyes were just staring at me. It was like she was still alive! I was so frightened.
It was 8.30. I heard footsteps walking over in my direction. It must have been Ben because I was standing by the barbeque. I was out of energy and decided to just let him wander off on his own for a bit. Suddenly I heard this scream. ‘Was it Susie? It can’t have been she’s dead!’ I quickly ran over to see what it was. It was Ben. He was standing underneath the tree that I had hung Susie under. He was crying! He must have liked her a lot to be crying over her. He suddenly started speaking. This is what he had said; ‘I did this for us. Susie isn’t the one for you, I am. You don’t really have to know who I am, but I just want you to know that I like you more then anyone can. You may notice me staring at you every day at school. I’m sorry about that. Each time I look at you it makes me more in love with you. Just think about how good it would be just me, and you. From, your love? Xxx
You’ve probably guessed that I wrote this. Well your right!
Yes! I finally did it! I had finally won the boy I have longed for all my life. Susie was gone now. She’s gone exactly where she belongs. She is gone for good! It wasn’t easy what I had done…but I got there in the end.
