Footsteps muffled, slowly coming towards her. Even though she can’t see him, but knows he’s there. His very presence releases an aura that reaches her. Her steps gradually stop. She slowly raises her eyes to focus on the figure standing a few yards away from her. Her breathe caught. Her pulse quickened its pace. The sandals dangling from her fingers slowly slipped their way down to land beside her feet.
His baby blue shirt is a complete contrast against the black sky and once more, his beauty astonishes her. Just looking at him only added to the throbbing pain inside her, the agony of losing this beautiful creature that was once hers.
Her eyes can’t meet his face for she already knows what she’ll find there were hate, scorn, and disgust. And she’s filled with shame. She stood there; her gaze engaged to the ground, not daring to look up for if she did, if she could see into his eyes, it would shatter her to pieces. And then it all comes back to her. She could still remember that night, in this beach. This beach that had witnessed their first kiss of love as they declared their souls to each other. It was a night filled with promises of a lifetime together. Their promise that was sealed with the kiss of life and the cry of the ocean.
“Look at me”, he utter to her “please, Sarah, just look at me.”
She took shattered breaths, gathering all the strength she needed. She levels her gaze to his and his eyes find hers and for a moment, time seemed to stop. There were no words, no actions, only the two lovers, two hearts.
She collapses into a heap on her knees on the cool glittering sand, his gaze never leaving hers. Sarah breaks down, helpless tears streaming down her cheeks. She buries her face in her hands. . His eyes tell her that he is confused with misery. Her hands itch to touch his face, to soothe him into a dull peace for both of them. To tell him that everything is alright. But she can’t. An invisible barrier stands between them, keeping her paralyzed and unable to cross the small distance to get to his welcoming arms and be with him.
“I need to know . . . please just tell me,” he begs.
She knew she had to tell him, right there, to stop her from suffering any more.
“David I’m so sorry I didn’t mean to……”she stops, she can’t go on, it’s too difficult, too hard to hurt the man she loved still does with all her heart, all her strength.
“What is it babe, what is it?”
“I’m so sorry you know I never meant to hurt you because I love you so much and ………I don’t want to lose you Dave,” she cried
“Just tell me, I’m sure we can sort it out babe, we always do,” he said with a lightly voice trying to understand.
“I …………………I had an affair babe,”
“What?” David was surprised to hear this they were alright, they were fine. “No. Not you. Not the Sarah I know.”
“Yes, the Sarah you know” she didn’t care anymore for she believed that the world had already taken the most important thing from her heart. She had nothing more to lose.
“With who, tell me Sarah? Who was it? Someone I know, was it Sarah, tell me!” He demanded now sounding anxious.
“You wont know him, it don’t matter anyway because I’ve don’t it now in it, I’ve done it.” She wept.
“No we can get through right we’ll………” David truly loved Sarah he couldn’t lose her. Not after what had happened. Not after he nearly lost her, he believed it was his fault this had happened. “Need sometime surely but we’ll get there in the end right?” David prayed that her answer would the same as he was wishing that they could make it. But Sarah wasn’t thing that.
“I can’t David, I can’t live with what I’ve done knowing that I’ll wake up besides you every morning……I just can’t” Sarah looked away finding it hard to she what she was saying.
"Is there a place for me in your heart? Even the smallest space will do." This seemed the strangest thing for someone who had just been betrayed to be saying.
“Cause I do” Sarah tell herself, the love she had for him was bigger than the universe, bigger than an soul could love another. She dying to tell him the truth, to finally hold him close and have him eternally. But she holds back. It’s her conscience holding her back and she then faces him as she breathed out in a strangled sob: “I sorry David, I can’t”
The hurt look on his face is the final blow, but still his is communicating with Sarah’s, telling her:
“Your know you’re the only one. I gave you my love and it’s yours forever.”
And although they didn’t touch, she felt his love pour through her like heat from the sun
“Please, don’t do this. You cannot love me anymore. Don’t make it harder for both of us . . .”Sarah said without looking into his eyes.
He threw her one last long look and there she saw gleaming tears running down his face. She hears his barely audible whisper then he was gone, leaving her cold and desolate and as barren as the desert. His goodbye still echoes through her heart.
And without thinking, without planning it, without worrying about it, she started running. Running for the one she loved, the one who gave her his love forever. David then realised that the one thing he was praying for in the last two minutes was about to come true. The one he loved so. The one he will always love no matter what, no matter who came between them.
“I love you babe” Sarah told David hugging him with joy.
“I love you too and I’m going to keep saying that till death those us part.
