The Wait

I was beginning to wish that I had not arrived so early. Already I had studied the menu at least tree times and surreptitiously had surveyed the other costumers, to make sure that I was dressed appropriately.  I was relieved to find that the clothes I had dithered over that morning were suitable.

This was a restaurant that I had often walked past, peering in longingly though the windows but never dreaming I would ever occupy a seat in restaurant.

I jerked back to reality as the appearance of a woman in the doorway caused my heart to race and my stomach to lurch. Perhaps it was Kim, as she approached I could feel my palms begin to sweat. I leant forward and put my hands on the arms of the chair and uncrossed my legs ready to stand up and greet her, slowly I relaxed and felt myself grow taller and more confident but the woman veered off to the right towards another table, where a much older man was already on his feet and who greeted her enthusiastically, kissing her on both cheeks before leading her to her seat at his table.

I was disappointed, that deflected feeling of rejection, except it wasn’t rejection as nobody had yet arrived.  I continued to try to lose myself in thoughts.  That uncomfortable feeling of sitting on your own descended on me so I held the napkin, unfolding and folding it again and again.  I glanced over at the couple who were by this time deep in conversation.  I wondered why a young woman might be meeting a much older man, but my thoughts were interrupted but the waiter, I dithered for a second before answering and I just asked for some water.

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I knew after looking carefully that the woman could not have been my friend; she looked exotic and well groomed.  And my friend had never been groomed or exotic.

I began to think about my friend who twenty years ago had been taller than me, with short bright red hair which went in every direction; her style was as absurd as her hair.  She always reminded me of someone who had just woken up and got straight out of bed and put on whatever happened to be nearest to her.  Another thing was she was always late, never ...

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