In life, people accumulate things that they simply cannot get rid of. These things can be unshakeable memories, people they cant forget, or items that they just dont have the will to toss in the trashcan.
Massy
Caitlyn Massy
Mr. Pabst
English 10 Honors
26 August 2009
For Good
In life, people accumulate things that they simply cannot get rid of. These things can be unshakeable memories, people they can’t forget, or items that they just don’t have the will to toss in the trashcan. They can carry the memory of making a dollhouse with thei grandpa who recently passed away or the iPod that stays in her pocket all day just so she can listen to one song. The things a person carries with hin can weigh him down or lift him up. A person doesn’t decide what to carry with him; he can’t make it go away. It’s just there.
Memories are supposed to fade; they have to in order make room for the new ones. However, some memories remain vivid forever. In the past four years, I have had four family members die. When somebody dies, I feel guilt: guilt that I never got to say goodbye, or that I didn’t when I got the chance. I feel guilty because I’m glad that it ended for them, that they could stop fighting, because three of the four had diseases. Then I realize that it only ended because they lost their battles. Most of all, I feel the guilt of having the feeling that I never got to know them well enough. When we talk about my grandpa, I realize that I had made incorrect observations about him. I thought that he was shy, that he was really serious. I can’t help but wonder whether if I would know him like my mother does he were still alive. She knows that he could make a whole room laugh with two or three words. He didn’t say much because he didn’t need to. When my aunt died and I listened to my mom’s eulogy about her, I realized that I knew almost nothing about her, but I still called her my favorite aunt. I remember very little about my Great-Grandma Nonie; the only memory I have is from a picture of her holding a spoon on her nose when the rest of the family was balancing spoons on their noses. She always hated to be left out. I love my family, and, even though I only know a few facts about those in my life who have passed on, I will continue carry with me the love that I have always felt for them.