So, Goodnight compadré
August 19th 2006
I woke up it was 4 am, I was sweating like a bastard. Something was wrong, I just knew something was wrong. I tried to stand up but I couldn’t , my stomach still hurt so much.
Suddenly someone knocked on the door. I got a feeling my dad had returned, this gave me enough power to stand up and open the door. When I opened the door I saw the fuckin’ POPO. There were two of them and both looked very sad. One of them started ‘Listen boy, I don’t know how to say this but your mother is death’. I wanted to cry and after that jump of a building, but I had to be strong like she taught me. I asked him what had happened to her. He dazed at me searching for a way how to say it, I started to get upset. ‘Comon gringo tell me’ I told him. He said something like‘ She was working in the liquor store, when 4 guys with weapons came in and wanted money. She tried to push the alarm button but she was to late, they hit her and tied her up’….. He stopped, then he said; ‘They took the money but they still didn’t have enough, they raped her, and then they gave her the bullet’. Im telling you men I snapped, I wanted to hit the cop in my rage but they stopped me. Why am I writing this..She has left me, I will revenge her I swear, so its only you and me compadre…
August 20th 2006
Today me and my vato Big, who also wants to join the MS 13 gang went to the one of the gangs hide-out. It was this fucked up buiding with no windows at all. Inside of the building I saw a couple of fights. Whoever wants to join the gang has to participate in this try-out to become a real gang member. I have to tell the truth shit was getting messy, people were bleeding and all. But I wasn’t scared. My fight was Crazy Im telling you. Everyone first started to rub his belly which in gang language meant beating or killing someone. Everyone started to count 5..4..3..2..1..then it started. These idiots started kickin and punching me realhard. It took 30 seconds but I stood my men. No one messes with me. Now I finally am a real gang member.
August 21st 2006
Today was…fucked…I am holding my tears in..so much anger… I couldn’t believe my ears first. I was chillin with this guy Ramirez from the gang he is supposed to teach me shit. I asked him if he had done some dangerous stuff in his life. He told me he had robbed this sexy momma in a liquor store….he also raped her…and killed her. It was my momma, I knew this for sure. They KILLED HER, I gonna make COLD those IDIOTS. Don’t worry compadre the killer is sleepin with the fishes tonight…if you know what Im sayin..AahAHAHAAA
The gang taught me that they were honest only kill rich peeps. Damn..They taught me First GOD then the GANG and then ya MOMMA. NO! I will REVENGE HER and .. KILL.. them. Tomorrow is my last day I suppose….Who gives a shit as long as I revenge my mom soon we will be together..yes…I will take a couple of guns and rush to the fucked up try-out building.. yess… I gonna take as many bastards as I can. I am a complete screw up, I couldn’t even take care of my own life. This at least is a good deed, my last one probably….
You were my only compadre through these rough times thank you....adios….
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