My name is Sarah..... I am but three, My eyes are swollen I cannot see,

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My name is Sarah..... I am but three,
My eyes are swollen I cannot see,
I must be stupid I must be bad,
What else could have made  daddy so mad?

I wish I were better I wish I weren't ugly,
Then maybe my mommy Would still want to hug me.
I can't speak at all I can't do a wrong
Or else I'm locked up All the day long.

When I awake I'm all alone
The house is dark, My folks aren't home
When  mommy does come I'll try and be nice,
So maybe I'll get just One whipping tonight.

Don't make a sound! I just heard a car
My daddy is back From Charlie's Bar.
I hear him curse, My name he calls
I press myself Against the wall s

I try and hide From his evil eyes
I'm so afraid now I'm starting to cry
He finds me weeping, He shouts ugly words,
He says its my fault That he suffers at work.

He slaps me and hits me And yells at me more,
I finally get free And I run for the door.
He's already locked it And I start to bawl,
He takes me and throws me Against the hard wall.

I fall to the floor With my bones nearly broken,
And my daddy continues With more bad words spoken.

"I'm sorry!", I scream But its now much too late
His face has been twisted Into unimaginable hate
The hurt and the pain Again and again
Oh please God, have mercy! Oh please let it end!

And he finally stops And heads for the door,
While I lay there motionless Sprawled on the floor
My name is Sarah And I am but three,
Tonight my daddy Murdered me.

Angry, hurt, destroyed
Broken, bruised and toyed
Damned to a secret hell
Falling for your deadly spell
Wounded soul, live hood charred
Feeling so stupid, arms now scarred
Innocence stolen, purity taken
Forever lost, joy forsaken
So of tired life, sick of this fight
��m going to take my life tonight

Same old story, two souls unite in a bond
For years they had been, to one another, fond
And they spread the words of love amongst their friends
Unknown that there was going to be, with one, an end.

Never once thinking that there would be hurt
Unfortunately her heart is grounded into dirt
By that whom she considered a friend, so close
One who she had trusted the most.

This girl, so hurt and broken that no one sees
Is the author of this poem, she is me.
No one ever told me, that love came with pain
Now here I sit, tears cascade like rain.

Why is it that I'm running, running from you
When I thought you were a friend, one to be true?
Unfortunately, my senses were completely wrong
And now I'm on the edge of weak and strong.

Yes, I'll admit it in Love am I
And he's never once made me cry.
Instead he's one of those I run to
Whenever I'm down and blue.

Even so, those words you say to me cut deep.
Deeper then the ones upon my wrist when I weep.
But you don't seem to understand.
Ever since we've been together, I've been able to stand.

Why aren't you happy for me?
Why is it you cannot see;
Of all the pain you make?
Are you trying to make me break?

Why is it that I'm running, running from you
When I thought you were a friend, one to be true?
Unfortunately, my senses were completely wrong
And now I'm on the edge of weak and strong.

And here I am now,
As I wonder how
How did I survive today as it went by?
I wonder why I didn't cry.

Maybe that's what you need to see
To get you to understand me.
Maybe that's what it'll take, dear boy
To make you see my life isn't a toy.

It is truly sad my old friend
On how you react to my relationship in the end.
So I'm guessing you're the type of guy
Who goes against everything in my eyes.

Why is it that I'm running, running from you
When I thought you were a friend, one to be true?
Unfortunately, my senses were completely wrong
And now I'm on the edge of weak and strong.

I understand that you can be concerned
But what you've shown isn't concern, I've learned.
I don't know exactly what it is, but I know it's killing me
So now I'm done with it, with the things you don't see.

You tell me to leave him, but I want to know what's best
You say he causes problems in my life; Stress.
But that is where I draw the line, no more; your words will I hear
Because this is the end of our friendship my dear.

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Tears stain a face
She feels like a disgrace
How to deal with this pain
She can not find a place
For Goodness sake
How long is this going to take
Pull the trigger
& set a pace
She loves the taste
As the blood drains
Washed away the tears
The glares of her peers
There goes all her fears
Till she looks in the mirror
Such a disgrace
The pain she could not take
The scar remains
To take the place
Of the tears that stained her face
But still remains the hate.

As soft winds sweep away the days
I look back on life through a haze.
Remember playgrounds, parks ...

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