“My Harry?” I asked suspiciously.
“Yes Natalie, your Harry. Did you know he has a thing for Jodie?”
“Erm sorry, say that again.”
“Did you know he has…”
“I didn’t mean literally Anne!! Who told you this? Are you sure it’s true?! Just give me all the details ok.”
“Ok so I was in English yeah and you know I sit just behind Harry and John?”
“John? John who?”
“Your telling me you’ve been going out with Harry for five months and you still don’t know his best friend?!”
“Oh John Wicks! Sorry blonde moment, anyways carry on”
“so yeah anyways, I was bored so decided to listen in on their conversation”
“so in other words to were eavesdropping?”
“Eavesdropping is such an evil word. I like to think of it is just casually listening in” Anne giggled.
“So come on, what they’d say, oh my god, he said I was bad in bed didn’t he? Oh I knew it. What do I do now?!”
“Natalie would you just shut up! He didn’t say anything about your sex life so don’t worry! They were talking about Jodie’s party on Friday though, the one we didn’t go to because of your stupid brother, why couldn’t he babysit himself?! But anyways, John said he liked that Vicky Foster girl and that’s when Harry blurted out that Jodie looked really hot and that he wanted to get with her. I tried to hear what else they said but the bell went and everyone was being loud… im really sorry babe.”
Anne’s my best friend. She’d never lie about something like that; she’s only ever tried to help me. But why? Why would Harry say that?
That night I just stayed up in my room thinking about what Anne said. It just continued to go round and round in my head. It was like a bad dream that I wouldn’t wake up from. At that moment I decided to call him, just to see how he would act with me.
“Hey babe, I thought I’d call you, I just wanted to hear your voice before I went to bed.”
“Oh hey Nat, a bit random of you isn’t it? Any reason you called?”
“So I need a reason to call my boyfriend now do I? If im interrupting anything, Il go.” I said sharply.
“Aw Nat please don’t be like that, I was just asking, im glad you called. Ok?”
“Ok Harry. I love you.”
“Oh. Erm. Me too.” Harry responded in a very confused and mumbled tone.
“Fine be like that!” I screeched to him as I hung up the phone.
All that night I lay their crying. Wondering what she has that I don’t. I thought he was different. How stupid could I have been?!
Later that week, Harry and I broke up. A few days after, he asked out Jodie. I didn’t understand what had happened at first, but then it occurred to me. I mean why wouldn’t Harry dump me for her. She’s beautiful- long, glistening, blonde hair, straight, white teeth, long slim body with a bum and boobs. What guy wouldn’t want that? And being out with me was bad for his image, who would want a girlfriend that’s, well, the complete opposite of Jodie. Apart from the hair, we both have blonde hair, but hers is still so much nicer than mine. I knew from then on what I had to do to get my boyfriend back. It weren’t gonna be easy, but nothing ever is, I need Harry, he’s my world. So im prepared to do any needs necessary to get him back. No matter the risks. It’s worth it.
So that week, I cut out my main meals. Snacking on what were only fruit and vegetables. Water was my main ingredient though. Whenever I felt hungry, I turned to water. Loosing the pounds was exactly what I needed. I joined a gym and did cardio every evening. I then realised I needed to turn this into a on going thing. So as the weeks passed, things got easier, it became my way of life, I could see the pounds dropping. I felt great about it, and soon so would Harry.
No one noticed what I was going through either, it was great. I’ve always been one to keep myself to myself. It’s not like im doing anything really bad or anything is it? I’m defiantly not anorexic so there’s no problem here.
Although one day at school, I had collapsed. I don’t understand what happened. One minute I was stood their laughing and messing around as I normally would, and then that was it. Next thing I remembered I had Anne shaking me and telling me to get up. In the distance I saw Harry peering over in my direction, I smiled knowing that im getting his attention now. I knew I was right to loose this weight; he’s going to love me again. I can feel it!
That night, I stood there, just looking at myself in the ghastly mirror. Im so ugly and hideous to look at. I need to stop eating full stop. That way there’s nothing to stop me, I will look better than Jodie, even if it kills me!
Months Went by.
“Yes, she was a lovely girl Ms West, im just so sorry. Please give my condonances to the rest of your family. If there’s anything you need, im here ok? “
“Thank you so much, there’s one thing though. Would you be able to do some kind of plaque just so the kids at the school won’t forget my Natalie. She always loved school, and it will make me and my family feel a bit better knowing that she won’t be forgotten. Im sure Natalie would feel the same.”
“It would be my honour Ms West.”
“Im sorry Mrs Skye, someone is trying to get through on the phone, I will contact you soon. Thank you for your help… bye”
“Hello…
“Hey Ms West its Anne”
“Oh Hello Anne, are you okay?”
“I know it’s not been long since… well, Nat Passed… but I think I know why she turned anorexic. She has a diary, and the last time she stayed round my house, she must have left it here. My mum was clearing my room up earlier and she found it under my bed. I think you should read it. Everything will become clear to you, it has for me, and I’ll come around with it tomorrow if you want? …. Ms West?”
“Sorry dear, just in shock right now, yes can you please bring it around, and thank you, thank you so much. Natalie thought the world of you, im glad that you were a part of her life.”
“I thought the world of her too, I miss her so much, and she had so much potential. I just want my best friend back!”
The phone goes dead.
