I am Cassandra. I was a princess, a cursed prophetess, daughter of the king of Troy

past, the sinned days of this house, the vision of Thyestes, who unknowingly ate his own son… the cruelty murder of this house. I hear children crying. Oh! No! I don’t want to see. I don’t want to hear. I want relief from this. Why do you create us, God? What pleasures do you feel giving us so painful life? All only face the situation, but I,,, I not only become the victim but also see the horrible past and future. I don’t want to see it anymore but it appears before my eyes again and again. I don’t want this power. I can see everything but cannot avert those. God,, you has given me the power of prophecy but not with fulfills. Actually, it was my fault. I had committed a sin with the God, Apollo. From after that I am bearing a cursed life. God Apollo fell in love with me and granted me the gift of prophecy. I promised to bear him a child. However, I could not. I wanted to live being a virgin woman. Therefore, I refused him. He turned against me. As God could not take back his gift, he punished me by making it so that nobody would heed my warnings. Believe me,, believe me…. Yours king, Agamemnon will be murdered within some times….Don’t ignore me as a lunatic as usual. I couldn’t save my city, my family. Troy was doomed. Countless time before and during the Trojan War I predicted what would come in the war, but no one believed me. I predicted the fateful occurrence, I ran around the ramparts of the city crying, and spouting oracles, that no one understood. I wanted to destroy Paris,, I forbade them not to accept Helen as the ‘Helen of Troy’. Troy would burn for them. None heard me. Most people considered me insane and tried to subdue me. People laughed at me in disbelief. But I always was trying to warn my people of impending disaster.  I have seen the death of my brothers, my father, and my whole city.  What a life I lead!! Most of my life has spent in frustration and torment. I am not afraid of my death. It is my fate to die, and to join the rest of my fellow citizens, my family. Oh!!! I am happy; it is going to be ended. I wish for a quick death and await the time I can close my eyes and sleep, never to be tortured with visions of horror and deception, which are too much to bear. Oh! Oh! What vileness! Once again the dread pain of true prophecy spinning in my head, whirling with promotions. Oh! How it burns, the fire invades me! Ah! Lycean Apollo! The pain, the pain!! Why haven’t you killed me with my family? I cannot bear up this unbearable pain. Please kill me, kill me…it’s a life of hell. If I did not become so greedy, I would not have to see any bloodshed scene again and again. Haven’t the time of my atonement finished until now. How cruel you are, God!! Please.. Forgive me, my Lord. Shall I gain a heavenly peace after death??? Oh!! Why I wanted this power?? It is nothing but a life of hell. So many violence scenes I have to tolerate. I don’t want this power. Please….. Take back it. Apollo, certainly you are enjoying my life. Enjoy…enjoy. Hmm!! Only some moments, then everything are finished. It’s time to death. Yet I am so happy because my cursed life is turning into the death. Oh!! Apollo why did you choose me????? What the fates have decreed, cannot be altered even by the divinities. I did not seem to think that life has anything to offer me anymore. I am only 21 but have seen so many things that I have no need to live more. I want to die… Please don’t do this with anyone more..Plzzz….plzzzzz…intense pain..Oh!!!!! No….. I cannot…I cannot…Please take it away from my eyes. Finish it,,,finish it. My hand is shaking,,my head is turning round,,Oh!!!!My body is shaking…I cannot.. I want to die,,,the death ,,the death… I want rest from this awful life…..Ohh!!!! No!!!