In the short story Save as Many as You Ruin we hear about Gerard. He has a daughter, Lucy, whose mother, Issy, died years prior
Mie Frost, s13Alssundgymnasiet, Engelsk A23/11/12
Save as Many as You Ruin
In the short story “Save as Many as You Ruin” we hear about Gerard. He has a daughter, Lucy, whose mother, Issy, died years prior to when the story takes place. Gerard is no saint and has made many mistakes in his life. He is still recovering from his biggest, when he sees her – the love of his life and the biggest mistake. The themes and topics being discussed in the text include losing and finding love, coincidences, making mistakes and being a spectator in life.
Gerard is a man of many thoughts. He thinks about life and how short and insignificant it is. “Gerard thinks of his own footprints and how soon they will disappear. He exhales into the world and his breath disappears. (…) He wonders if his life is an extraordinary one” He can name every mistake he has made and he is wondering if he is making the best of his life, but he doesn’t seem to be active in doing anything about making amends. The biggest mistake he has made was the affair with Issy. The affair turned out to be a fatal turning point in his life. The mistake cost him Laurel, the love of his life. Not only did he lose Laurel, but Issy left him, too. Even though he never loved her losing her must have caused pain and regret. But Issy also gave him the most precious thing – his beloved daughter, Lucy. She and Laurel are the two persons he has ever loved. There are many contrasts in the story, but this is one of the major ones: he could not have had one of them without losing or not having the other. There are some symbolic contrasts that suggest that Gerard is torn between the positive and negative outcome of this “Blessing in disguise”, which the affair with Issy turned out to be. For example, he states that he feels a “stabbing love for his daughter” – he uses two words that are contrasts to describe how much he loves his daughter: so much that is hurts. This also underlines how much he values her being born, in spite of what it cost him. He doesn’t wish to lose her like he once lost Laurel. The memories connected to Laurel are happy and sad. It is a symbol of Gerard’s regret of ruining his chances with Laurel, when it was just so perfect. “Hetherington ran in the 1936 Olympics in Berlin. He won a medal. Hitler watched. Millions were about to be killed as a teenage Hetherington crossed the finish line”