The Outcast

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The Outcast

In our lives we are constantly and naturally reaching out to connect with others. We only have a short time here on Earth, and we strive to share it – but everything comes with a price. In Celia Behind Me, the author Isabel Huggan, through a sensitive and blunt retrospective first person narrative, perceptive characterization, extensive use of ironies and compelling images, illustrates the excruciating mischief and distress caused by the psychological and social confinement imposed on us, as we persistently attempt to integrate with the bourgeois, or the majority.

The author sets the stage for this consistent mood of horror and distress by employing a retrospective first person narrative. To begin with, the story is told in a rather childish, yet disturbingly blunt and practical manner. As a nine year-old girl, Elizabeth is still too callow and unsophisticated to hide her emotions. More than once, she exposed her naked hatred towards Celia with a tone filled with bitterness and hot wrath: “I thought things over, I hated Celia with a dreadful and absolute passion.”

Upon the first glance, Elizabeth’s attitude towards this poor diabetic child is deeply intriguing. What could possibly have been said or done by Celia to trigger such a violent abhorrence in her? Though Elizabeth’s loath towards Celia didn’t subside as the plot unfolds – it was consistent throughout, it became perfectly reasonable later in the story: “Terror of terrors that they won’t be scared…knotting fear that they’d find out or guess what she’d really said and throw millions of snowballs just for the joy of seeing me whipped… I visualized that scene all winter.” Being itself a rather cynical remark, this excerpt also conveys a distressful and uneasy mood – not just at one point, but taunting and evolving all the way to the end. As the story is told in retrospect, every piece of Elizabeth’s memory is tainted with a spell of fear and horror. And perhaps one could easily identify the source of it. It comes from the fear of not being accepted by the majority: “For I knew, deep in my wretched heart, that it were not for Celia I was next in line for humiliation.” It is the fear of humiliation which compels Elizabeth to victimize Celia. She sees teasing Celia as the only tool to help here integrate. Furthermore, she is not the only one in the story who does that. Huggan has constructed the story in a way so that such fear and mischief can be seen on almost every character.

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To begin with, the characterization of Elizabeth’s parents is incisive and perceptive. Being pressurized under the bourgeois, they are but another group of people attempting to integrate into the clique of the majority. They are not true parents. They did what they did because it was the “right” thing to do: “…they became so soured by their own shame that they slapped my stinging buttocks for personal revenge as much as for any rehabilitative purposes. ‘I’ll never be able to lift my head on this street again.’” Throughout the entire story, Elizabeth’s parents never offered her any sympathy or understanding. ...

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