Frederick William Fea's Diary
by Mohammed Bakir
30th October 1914 - The golden sun is setting in the crimson-pink sky and I'm safely away from the front line. I just came back and had some of the disgusting grub that they poison us with daily. I know that I shouldn't complain but I'm really getting sick of it. The bread's not even fresh. It's disgusting watching all the vulgar men fighting over the food and poor tea and stuffing their faces with what they can lay their hands on. You have to be really careful here not to get your food stolen by the scum that infest this place. I'm not saying that I'm genteel or anything, but I do have principles. I hope I can keep them longer than this rabble have.
The sounds that I can hear from the front-line are as worrying as usual. I guess I've got used to them but they do frighten me from time to time. Its surprisingly different at the front line. You just seem to loose all your hearing and sense of time. And, when you look back at what happened, you just remember a blur of red colour. You're just worried about staying alive, I guess. Not even the dead, choking men can take that instinct from you. It's mad. At first, I got so upset about what I saw; dying men choking, guttering and drowning in their own blood through a thick cloud of green gas, but know I just don't see it the way I used to. I get worried sometimes that I don't even flinch when I accidentally step on a mutilated corpse. Well, at least I'm not as bad as the men who can have a laugh when they see their friend's head sticking out of the mud.