04/09/1998
Josh was with a big gang of friends but when I waved across the road to him he acted as if he didn’t see me. I did not see him again for the rest of the day. But on the good side the class I was in was really friendly and they were really welcoming. They were asking me the meanings of rude words in German. The day was really fun I couldn’t wait to come home and tell my parents all about it. My step dad was very happy, probably because I have to make a good impression on his business friends, whose children also go to the same school. I hope I don’t fail him or my mum will not be happy.
11/07/1998
I haven’t been to school for the past few days. I have told my mum that I was ill. Really its because when I go to school and Josh and his gang start throwing paper and sweets at my head. Then at break time they’ve started calling me a German nazi and that I should go back to Germany because I think that I am better than they are. I started feeling really sad because I thought Josh would stick up for me but he just watched and then started joining in. He just turned on me. When I went home I didn’t tell my mum or my step dad because they were so proud of me and it was like I would be disappointing them and I knew that my step dad wouldn’t buy me any more games, which I love playing. But I think my mum noticed something because the other day she asked me how was Josh and said that he hadn’t come round to play and I said he was all right. I told her that I haven’t really chatted to him much and then she asked why and I said it’s just been hard to talk because I was busy making friend. Then she said she was going to speak to his mum. But even if she does speak to his mum I doubt Josh will admit that he and his friends are now bullying me.
13/07/1998
My mum said that I had to go back to school because I can’t miss too many days off of school because I will have loads of work to catch up on and as I am new I should be in as I don’t know as much. I love staying at home I get treated like a prince. Anything I want I get and my step dad keeps bringing me loads of games. But I don’t want to go back to school because then that would mean going to school and facing the bullies. So in the end I pretended I was going to school but I’m not I hang about in this Internet café and have met this really cool man named Jim and I think he knows something because he asked me why I wasn’t at school and I told him I don’t go to school but he said how come I am wearing school uniform but I didn’t answer him, so he asked me if I was being bullied and he said that I should tell a teacher and he will go with me. I would like his support but if I tell him it will only make things worse. I don’t know what I will do I might take his advice because I don’t think I can handle it.
15/07/03
The school found out I was skipping school because a teacher saw me at the café during her lunch break. When they told my mum she was sympathetic with me, but when she told my step dad and he freaked and started calling me a wimp, and why didn’t I tell him so he could sort it out privately. But no he is not doing it for my protection. He wanted to do it to protect him self, so his business friends don’t find out his stepson is a wimp. I don’t care what he or his business contacts think because he isn’t even my real dad so he can’t even tell me what to do. I told him that he was a bastard and no wonder he hasn’t got ant kids of his own and he looked really upset. I wish my mum never met him. My mum didn’t even stick up for me. She just stood there and watched and just shook her head. she just betrayed her real family.
17/07/03
My mum took me to Josh’s house to speak to him and his mum and him. When I went there he said he was sorry and that he thought I was cool being German and different and he doesn’t care what other people thinks and he would want to be friends if I still want to. I said yes and we went back to school and every one was being nice and all Josh’s friends started asking me swear words in German. But I still had to say sorry to my step dad and he said sorry for calling me a wimp because I’m not one and bought me the newest game out I was so happy.
I like school now and I am no hanging round with loads of different people and still go in the café to see Jim and chat to him. I am now getting on well with my step dad and mum and know have loads of computer games and everything I have wanted and now Josh is my best friend.
