On this very day I had been told by a few people my year that a girl named Tania who was one of the prettiest girl in my year but also very unpopular with a few people, was spreading rumours about me and my friends.
According to these people ‘All three of them girls Nicole, Sarah and myself were Slags, Tramps and I am so much better than them.’ She of course is so much better!!!
I was actually surprised by what she had said because we always got a long fine and therefore there was no reason for her to say this. But as I heard it from several people I had no other choice than to believe what I was hearing.
I told Nicole and Sarah later in the day and both of them immediately went ballistic. Their faces went bright red of anger. I did not understand why they became so angry about the comments made by Tania. It felt like there was a history between Tania, Nicole and Sarah. But as far as I know there not even friends.
Tania’s opinions did not matter to me but Nicole and Sarah were so angry about it. I even hastily tried to calm both girls down but they kept saying:
‘She has no right saying this, I am going to get my revenge…’
At that point I too was influenced to feel angry as well but I still thought the situation was being exaggerated out of proportion.
In the last lesson all three of us schemed to confront Tania and possibly even beat her up.
Time got closer till the end of the lesson and I kept wondering whether or not this was the right decision to do this. I didn’t even think that would affect her emotionally.
After school we followed her home. Nicole then suddenly started throwing bricks at her.
At first I thought it was funny but the situation turned very serious.
All three of us started shouting and screaming abuse at her.
It seemed like an emergency were everyone starts panicking and
screaming.
I did hear Tania admitting to those rumours and she apologised straight away. None of us seemed to had taken notice of what Tania had said.
Then out of the blue Nicole started pushing her to the ground. Tania did not even try to defend her self but tried to walk away but Nicole kicked her more. To Nicole it seemed like a funny joke and she seemed not to care about Tania’s emotions.
When I looked at Tania I could see the fear in her eyes. Tears were running down her face.
My guilt began to rise and took me by surprise.
Nicole and Sarah just had big smiles on their face. To make me look cool I started kicking her but it didn’t feel right. By every kick my guilt seemed to rise in me. It came to a point were I just stopped and knew this was not right and pulled my friends away. Both pulled their faces but walked away.
In the mean time Tania had run away to hide. After this incident I knew bullying is cruel.
I saw Tania the next day, when I looked at her she had a face white as snow and looked very scared.
A week later I found out that she had left the school. I decided to see her in her house to apologise because I felt so guilty about what I had done.
She accepted my apology but did not want anything to do with me because I broke her confidence in herself and she didn’t feel secure anymore.
I swore to myself not to do anything like that again.
