As I arrive at school my mood changes, seeing my friends opens a new mood to my day. I change to being talkative, wondering what my friends have been doing, if anything interesting has happened to them since the last time that I spoke to them yesterday. Of course nothing has happened so I go back to my depressed state knowing that nothing is going to happen today, so put the energy into the day.
The first bell rings. Depression and despair for I know what the day ahead is going to consist of. Boring, and some useless task which we are supposed to be learning from. As I glance out the window the scenes of the depressing weather has made me more anxious to leave school. The same boring scenery around me, the people, everything seems to be less and less interesting.
By break my mood has changed. I don’t feel as depressed and tired. I feel sociable; the gloom of the day is lifting. I walk around the school with my friends telling jokes and my mood eventually gets better. I am enjoying myself but still not looking forward to the rest of the day.
As lunch arrives I am energetic and happy. I am doing more things and I am not so tired. I have found energy from my lunch and excitement from talking to my friends. I don’t feel so depressed and the gloom that was once there has seemed to disappear. But in the back of my mind it always is. Knowing that another lesson is soon brings pain to my heart. I try to use my time wisely. Getting motivated to carry on the day.
Yes! the end of the day is near. It is the lesson five and I am overwhelmed with joy. Waiting for that hand on the clock to get to half past is like torture for me. I am unleashed with a joy that is indescribable. The bell has gone I know that I will be home soon. In the comfort of my house and able to do anything that I like. I make for the door quickly, meeting a friend on the way home. Then the pain returns I am going to have to do this again tomorrow. I force this thought to the back of my mind and carry on the conversation with my friend. As I reach my home I know I have half a day left. I must make use of this time.
I sit in front of the computer. I talk to my friends on the internet but I get bored soon. I am able to find some joy though. When I search the web for nothing this is when on am very bored and start to get tired again, then start to overcome me. I get a snack to give myself more energy and it seems to have worked.
I am lying in bed trying to go to sleep but I am overcome with thoughts which fill my mind.
